Complains

The aircon in this office is so damn not cold. Like a sauna. Air con engineers, please hurry up and fixed these air-cons....its far toooooo hot.

Dead Tired

Thought that when my exams are done, i'll have more time and more space. Never did i expect myself to squeeze every single available time slot i have to work, bowl, eat, sleep and maybe shit.

Work load is forever never ending. Never knew why. One waves after another. Don't they evey feel tired. My battery is running low now. Singapore open is tiring. 5 bowlers to a pair is not A JOKE. it's damn freaking slow. I almost slept while bowling. That is HOW SLOW it was. omg.

Not too sure if I would be able to qualify and hopefully i could. At least let me win something this year before i quits the team. Life is sooooo tiring. We can figure anything out, except for life.

This little friend of mine, is facing some hell problems now. More like she is living in hell. (that's what she thought). Actually, things ain't that bad. She can always start all over again. It's allright to watse this year. It's a learning experience and if she is willing. She can always start from scratch. It's tough, but it is not as if it is not going to work.

Like a little lost lamb, she has not found her way back on life's track. Long before, i've already told her, she needs to think about her life. As a friend, that is how much i could do. there is nothing more i can help by just advicing because ultimately it is her decision on how she wants to live or watse her life away.

Sometime i've kinda pity her for not being able to mature from her mistakes. It makes me wonder, how many times must she fall in order for her to understand what life really is. Not that i'm very experienced in it, at least i know what i'm in for.

She is probably the first person i've ever met that is so screwed up in the inside. When i stand from a parents' point of view, i wonder what would i do if she were to be my child. At this point, i'm glad that i've always have such great parents. Actually it is also because i'm a good girl by nature too. =) smiles.

Everyone has their own problems. Every families have their own troubles. What may fit me most may not be what fits the other person best. All i could do now, as a friend, to stand by her and help he through her toughest time. That's my role.

There is probably another thing i need to discipline myself more. I realised that is has been my weakest spot all this time. yes. I know. Don't have to keep reminding me that. Well, and that is relationship. I'm always too concern with what others may think and stuff like this.

Now i've decided. poker face. :) yea. I have to be not affected by it. Will not ignore, will not avoid, will not approach, will not question, will not consider and WILL treat everyone naturally. Actually, i am treating all my friends naturally and equally. So even to those who is .... .... .... whatever, will also pretend i didnt know and treat them naturally as well. It will make my life so much easier.

Ok, deal. that's gonna do. I will just do with it first.

Goes one and comes another...

I shall declare that today i'm a happy girl. *screams* You can never imagine how relief I felt the moment i stepped out of the examination hall. In order to end it earlier, I walked out 15mins earlier then usual. Didn't bother to check my answes. That's how eager I was to get out of the examination hall.

While I was doing my paper today, I've already start to plan what should I eat along the way. Orange Julius? BK Onion Rings? and then I started thinking, when should I bowl my MQ and should I go work this friday. That shows how distracted I was during examination condition.

Well hopefully I can qualify by this Friday for Singapore open so I don't have to go down to Mt Faber Safra again cause it's just too damn freaking far for me to travel down regardless whether I'm working or from home.

Now I have 2 worries in my mind. One is what if I cannot qualify for Singapore open? I will be so damn freaking sianzzzz... Second is I hope August don't come so soon. August is the month where the UOL will release our results. Trust me, I do not wish to collect my results. I'm afriad that I might just get heart attack and die. Also, I might caused my parents to have high blood pressure.

Jeez, just when I though I can forget about studies and books, I have to worry for my results. OMG. But oh well, what's done cannot be undone. So hack it! I dun really give a DAMN!

Ok, HOLIDAYS!!!! but the swine is getting serious. Singapore already have one confirmed case. That makes travelling abroad kinda difficult now isn't it? Sad :( damn the swine man, just screw it.

How comes that "SWINE" is not being quarantined yet? they should have just lock her up at some zoo together with some other pigs. Ok, that's random. She didnt offend me anyway, i'm being mean here. but what to do, everytime I talked about SWINE. It just reminds me of her. LOL

Facial. Yeap, i'm going for facial with Siewmei next monday!!!!!!! am so happy about it. Siewmei is nice enough to change her appointment to suit mine so that we can go down together coz I dunnot how to go to that facial place. Ain't she nice? So God, please ask the marker to give her another few more marks for her papers. Kindness begets kindesss right?

Work, bowl, eat, sleep , shit...ok i'm back to my usual routine. But at least now I have a little more time than usual. Maybe I should visit my lecturers again to disturb them...muhahaha...oh yea, i forgot something. I need to complete reading books. I've promised to finish reading Hack and then Angels & Demons and then Marley & Me. If i'm not wrong, i think i promised Kawai that I'll read Harry Potter too. I think.

Sianz....but oh well reading helps to improve in my english before some one keeps complaining i'm like a Ah Sum. OMG.

I think I will read my manga, watch my animes first. Then read the story books! hahaha....okok, think i'm blogging too long. Shall end here.

Man

people are getting weirder these days. Maybe it's the weather. Or maybe studying has make my brain overworked and am thinking too much. yes. that has to be it. ok, back to studying.

Fun Day Out

Didn't have the chance to blog last night cause when out with steffi and kawai and only reached home at about 1am and we had training the following day in the morning. Disasters!

We met up for a movie marathon yesterday. We watched wolverine and then angels & demons. omg, the 2 movies are really the best. If we had more time andmore money, we would have night at the museum 2. LOL.

The next few movies we are looking at is drag me to hell. it's a damn scary show but I like =) muhahah, and steffi is still as timid as ever..*sighs* guessed like my horro movie partner got to be Ka. So sad. coz Ka is too noisy when she's in the movie. She kept asking my questions when i need to FOCUS on my movies. LOL. but can't blame her, she's just curious. Young girl mah.

AT plaza sing, I saw this damn awesome shop and it's called the OTAKU-SHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, they sell a lot of damn COOOOLLLLL stuffs.....*SCREAMS* I want to work there so i can wear the VK uniform and some kimono. Actually it's not a kimono, it feels more like a yukata. but oh well, it doesnt matter. I JUST WANT TO WEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Damn, if only cosplay in singapore is as popular as in japan. zzzzzz....well, a day out with the realy lightens my mood a bit. I thought i needed a break and i really do need one. Chatting with them, gossiping and laugh together. really brings me back to life. eh, i mean i do have life btu not that frequent.

I tried to study in the morning but failed terribly. Damn so i need to do all the catching up today. and i need to train for singapore open which is damn tiring and i hate to plot my MQs cos the timing is all so weird. and my work....zzzzzz i'm starting work this thursday...ARgh, i wish my no-pay-leave was forever.

okok, i better sleep now if not tomorrow cannot wake up in time for work. then it will be dks, ggxx and g game man...boss will sack me soon if i keep this up...hahahahaha....anyway, i will be looking forward to another day out with the girls like this. =)

oh yea, for some strange reason tiacpin is damn nice today, he treated me to lunch and also bubble tea for greg. maybe he strikes lottery yesterda?! but when mw and greg asked him, he said he lost $50 due to pin 7. Maybe he dont want the karma...hahahaha...later kena swine...lol...kiddin.

OKOKOK, i really need to go back to bed...

Towards The End Which Seems To Be The Beginning

Finally left with my last paper on next Wednesday. Cannot believe that I actually cleared 3 papers already. Felt like I'm on the verge of death. Didn't know that studying could be that hard. Wish I could be more hardworking from the very beginning. Have learnt my lesson, and will start studying 3 months before my exams. That is for next year.

As the days passed by and the weeks crushed on, I realised that I have very little confidence in completing my second year. The more I think about it the more demoralized I am. Say, how am I suppose to pick myself up after all this is over.

There were times where I thought I would break apart and crumble. What am I going to do if I don't get through my second year? Wonder how much will I disappoint my parent. I have already make them given up hope on my bowling, I cannot afford to let them down for my studies. That is the only other thing I could make them feel proud of me. If I can't even achieve that, then what's left in me?

Reflect. Thinking back on my studying sessions, although we were not as productive as we should be, we learnt something. Should be. I didn't put in enough effort. Not enough. Breathe. Yes. I need some breathing space. Sometimes I wished I had the courage to cry it out. Did you know that it takes courage to not to cry, but at the same time, you need some courage to cry and let it out?

I didn't know that too. Until recently that I realised it. Because we are all adults. Crying became something that isn't even in our dictionary. Let it go. That's right. That's what I thought too. Let it go, since there is nothing I could do about it anymore. What's done, cannot be undone. Knew that long ago.

I need a change. True. A change in myself. A change from within. That is not good enough. My attitude. That has too many weakness. That has to change as well. To become stronger. Every day is a brand new day, a brand new breeze. I can't just be myself right now.

I'm not moving forward at all. Stuck here. Unable to put my best foot forward when I know that I can always do better. I've knew that all along. Really. Laziness that sets in me, taking away my motivation. Ain't bringing me anywhere at all.

Casting aside all unneccesary thoughts. Clear up my mind. Reconsider. Plan. Friends. Family. My future. Career. And my life. Sighed. I need more determination and courage, to walk down this path that I've choosen. This is only the beginning. I will take some time off my busy schedule. Take a walk. Peaceful scenery. I need that.

Rest is important.

I'm signing off.

Hopefully

Getting tired from studying every day to prepare for my never ending exams that always seems to have uncountable number of chapters. How long more do I need to read and write until I can get it into my head...wonders... ... ... ...

I'm exhausted. To the extend that I no longer feel panic for my upcoming paper on Thursday. Although I know that I'm far from completing that module and I seriously have not enough time, I can't seem to find the urge to study. Perhaps I'm thinking of too many things at a go and that probably caused my brain system to mulfunction and detoriates.

Manga and anime is my all time favoutite past time. It just brightens up my day somehow or rather. After my exams, I'm so going to be a full time watching anime and reading manga maniac. Well, that if I could squeeze out some time from my work and training...zzzzz...

Went back to TP to study today with Siewmei. Catch up with some lecturers and our Course manager. She is still as friendly and as busy as ever. Well, I spared her the agony by letting her finish her packed lunch before she needs to rush off to some Graduation Ceremony by other courses. Had a fun and memorable chat with Mr. Lawerence Leong. He is still as funny as ever and we talked about our good old school days when we're in his class. He can be scary at times but his class was the most effective and productive. I never slept in his class before. Can you imagine that?

Mr. Tan Si Cheong is still as nice as ever. So as his best friend Chan Seet Meng. Still as gentle as ever. LOL. I still can remember how he always skipped my table when comes to checking tutorial answers. The surprising thing is that almost all the lecturers still remembers me. How nice of them. =) *smiles* Seeing them and having lunch with them really helps to bring my fatigue level down.

Despite me graduated from TP last year, it feels like it has been many many years since I last went back to TP to enjoy a tertiary student lifestyle. Realised that life as a student is really beautiful. Every other day is filled with laughter, stress, fun, enjoyable and frustrating moments. I still cannot forget how I felt back then when I stepped up on the stage during my Graduation Ceremony.

I've completed another stage of my life and is time for me to advance to another level. New challenges, new friends (although I don't really talk to other people in uni) and new experiences. We only have one life, so aim it well. I really hope that I can pass my exams and get through my second year smoothly. Well, guess it useless now as I've already taken my papers and there is already no turning back. I'll just have to pray for the best.

*sigh* it's 4.25am now and I'm starting to feel sleepy and I'm getting a little emo here. Recently, I've bumped into you but we hardly talk. But well, each time I see you, you reminds me of the past. I though I have COMPLETELY forgotten about you. And I'm so wrong about it. Don't worry, probably I'll need a little more time to forget every single thing about you. ENTIRELY!

Argh, whatever...I'm ignoring it. I missed upper thomson steamboat >.<
I want my MAN TOUS!

Pondering

Gentle breeze, sounds of waves, golden sand and children playing on the beach. Nice scenic view. Something just strike into me today and maybe i should start to reconsider the way i live my life until now.

Recalled the conversation i had with one of my poly lecturers some time back, told him that i'm currently working full time, studying full time and bowling full time and then he asked me:"Why are you trying so hard?" "You need some rest and you need a life."

I pause for a while and i smiled and my reply was " i didn't want to idle around since i'm already not that young anymore."

Now that i'm looking back at my tight schedule and how much i have to struggle for my exams, and how much i'm complaining i have not enough time and want to have more sleep. i begin to wonder perhaps is my commitments that are choking me so much.

Should i give up on either one? what would it be? studies is impossible. work or bowling? well, i need to have income and i still want to bowl. resign from national sq? hmmm, thought of that before but there some other issues bothering me at the moment. If i didnt have those issues, i would have left the team long time ago.

What should i do now? *sigh* maybe i'll decide after i get back my results in August. Maybe i really need a life... hmmm, but knowing myself that i love to slack and do nothing, that's why i choose to schedule my time in a way that i don't have time to idle around. Am i really pushing myself that much?

Looks like i'm going to spend more time thinking about what i want in life again...

Time Waits For No Man

Met the girls back in school for studying today. Clarified some stuffs and studied half a chapter of Corporate Finance. I have 7 chapters to complete and I only have another 5 more days to go...Maybe i should start planning my time well...i tend to watse too much time on unnecessary things such as reading manga, visiting facebook and blogging...zzzz

I conclude that there is 80% of my failing my PoBF which i took yesterday, so i'm starting to plan for my year 3 modules. Anyway, i guess i'll need to cover 2 chapters a day for my Corporate Finance and leave 2 days for me to do past year papers since i like to procrastinate. AND, i'm having Post-PoBF Syndrome.

Although today is not as productive as ever (maybe because i'm still recuperating from yesterday's battle), we had lot of fun and we spoke about how we going to enjoy our holidays after our exams and before our results are out. We spoke about holidays, clubbing, fishing, prawning, mah-jong, SUPPER!!! and what other modules we are taking next year.

We had dinner at Lau Pa Sat and we spent a total of $42 on food....we did order a lot of food and after that SM told me she's going to start slimming down after exams. Well i guess i'll have to do that too. Need to reduce my total fats on me man...

A couple of nice event happened today. Bumped into 2 of my secondary school friends at Lau Pa Sat and it really brings back memories. Recently i had my PRIMARY school friends adding my on facebook...oh my gosh, primary school leh...damn old school loh...but i was glad that they can still remember me =)

One of my thai friends came to singapore this morning and left for Hongkong in the evening at 8pm. Well, he thought that i could teleport and gave me such short notice of his departure. Didn't manage to see him off at the airport and also forgot to sms him, so he called and i bid von boyage to him...well, i guess habits ARE really second nature...it nice having to know such nice people...

Oh yea, and speaking about nice people...SM is super nice today. She waited for me and ML to reach school for almost 2 hours and 30mins. OK, i confessed that i really felt bad letting her wait in school ALL ALONE for the both of us and i've kinda disturbed her studying progress caused i kept talking to her and that makes her stop studying for god knows how many times...lol

I promise i shall not disturb her again when ever she is so serious in studying...i should start to be serious in studying too..erm, am i abit too late to say that since i'm already half way through my exams? oh well...it's better to be late than never!!!! hahaha...what logic is that...-_-'''

I wished for my exams to be over but at the same time i also wished that my exams dates to not come...how ironic can i be...i'm tired...

My Head Feels Heavy

Omg, omg...2 papers down and 2 more to go...damn...i can feel that my pimples are popping out one by one...Guess i'm seriously too stressed out..i need to make my pimples go away. It's irritating seeing one lump protruding out of my face...i seriously need to go for my facial soon and extract all the unwanteds out of MY FACE! okay, that's irrelevant.

Went to the Expo this morning to fight 2 battles. The examination hall is damn freaking cold and sitting there for 3 hours really is a torture. Besides, i think i've already killed half of my brain cells while fighting the papers. It's really tough. No wonder the passing mark is 34/100. Now i know why.

Microeconomics was my first paper in the morning. It didn't turn out as bad as i though it would be. Before the exam, SM gave me and ML 2 sweets to cheer up. Well, i think that worked pretty well. I need sugar to keep myself awake. After econs, we had Orange Julius...my favourite and studied a bit before going for our next paper.

Bumped into a few of the TP ex-coursemates. So i guess there are still many of us who are taking UOL, but they're in SIM. Anyway, PoBF was a disaster. I spent 15mins trying to choose 4 out of 8 questions that will maximize my marks. The first thing that came into my mind was "BLANK". =_= right, that was what happen in the examination hall. I didn't know what the hell the question wants from me.

So after spending 15mins choosing my questions, i spent the next 15mins sleeping...lol...yes, you didnt hear me wrong, i slept during the exams while others are busy writting their essays. G Game. After i woke up, it seems that some of the answers float through my mind. hmmm, lucky i took a power nap.

Then i spent like a few minutes here and there ston-ing, looking at invigilators and looking at the time. hmmm, i realised that i was procrastinating...jeez...finish the paper at about 5pm and suddenlt another set of answer appeared in my mind, so i used 30mins to finish 3 parts of a question. Ain't i fast? lol. Hopefully they are the right answers.

And after which, i went to training looking like a zombie with messy hair and teary eyes (cos i was sleepy) and my pimple still irritates me. Anyway, training was.... .... ..... well, i couldnt find a word to describe. so i'm gonna just leave it as it is.

Despite my tiring and long day, there were a few funny moments. of coz, i was the joke of it. you know what is the answer for vibration + silent = ? and that is ViLent....well, that was what i said in the morning. unknowingly.

another equation : Orange Original + Regular = ?
the answer is Regina....don't ask me why, it just came out of my mouth...lame hor..i also say...

Hopefully i can study well for my next 2 papers. really tiring and on the verge of death. I dun wanna re-take any of my papers. Pass will do man...just let me pass, that's all i ask for. do you think it's possible??? erm, no comments.....zzzzz..... -_-'''

Status: Dead.

Tomorrow, wake up at 7am to bath and then eat breakfast at 730am, prepare myself and leave house at 8.30am and be at the Expo by 9am and into the examination hall by 10am. 3 hours paper. Then rest for 1.30hr and then another paper at 2.30pm to 5.30pm and then, training at 7pm at OCC.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! time flies so fast and tmr is my exams. Is there a way for me to pause the time and then rewind it back so that I can have a little more time to study? oh well, guess that's not possible at all. Great. And after tomorrow you'll probably see my dead body lying somewhere. Oh yea, I forgot...I can't die yet, I have another 2 more papers to go before I pronouce myself dead.....zzzomg

I'm stressed to the max and I'm having a mega pimple breakout. I have no idea where these pimples come from and it's kinda irritating...After one subsided, comes another one. Maybe that's the reason why I cannot seem to remember my stuff, cox my pimples are absorbing all the inputs and then produce them on my face as output. er, that sounded like econs...

Went out studying with the girls as usual today and the 3 of us were like stressing to max in the library. hmm, probably i shouldn't say we were, it's more of like, WE ARE still stressing on our exams. Well, although they dun have mega pimple breakout like mine.

I really hope that exams can finish fast and I can start my full time watching anime and reading manga profession...LOL..oh yea, i forgot that i still need to go back to work...WHAT A DRAG!. but oh well, i like it when i get my paycheck... hehehehehe...ok, that kinda lower my stress level by a bit.

And of course, after exams means holiday with the girls...yeah~~~ we're going shopping, playing and massage!!! i hope that we can go facial as well and clean my face...maybe i should start making facial appointments. but i'm just too lazy to go for facial...haiz, it's tough being a girl...damn...

*sigh* i'm going back to visit my books now and i got to sleep early tonight since i'm going to wake up early tmr...no time to watse and time waits for no man...eh, i sounded wise hor...lol..okok...in a perfect competition, she-na equates at no expectation = no stress and that will maximize she-na's consumption profit. MUHAHAH, ok...i sounded insane.

Bye peeps. enjoy. eat more. sleep more. play more. slack more. and still slack more.

Another Day Wasted!

It's a public holiday and here I am mugging at home for my exams in 4 days time. GREAT!
Since i'm blogging now means I have not had much progress with my studies...BINGO!
Now i'm soooooo screwed. I need to quarantine myself at home tomorrow the whole to make up for today. EH, mummy, sorry i think you have to spend mother's day alone. I'll be spending mother's day with my books. SO enjoy mum!

Well, woke up at 2pm today since i dun have to meet sm or ml for studies at 12pm anymore. I read some mangas and found that I've finished 4 chapters with 195 pages long of manga today. Titles Itadakimasu. Well, so now you'll probably figured out what I did for the whole day. =) SMILES..yes, i read manga today insetad of my PoBF study guide. Good Game.

Recently my eyes has been failing me. I tend to see double image. zomg, is it because i studied too much??? maybe...ok, another excuse for me to not study. HOW LAME.

Tried doing skipping today and after 25 rounds i'm so tired. I had leg cramp after that. WELL DONE. i'm getting old....argh! this is not a good sign...

I'm supposed to be studying now but when ever i see my books i feel like sleeping and when ever i see my manga i'm energetic. Someone, please tell me what's wrong with me. Perhaps i got some illness when i see books i'll immediately go into a sleepy stage.

haiz, bored.

Glimpse From The Past

Took a step, I walked into Temasek Polytechnic. Nostalgic. All the memories from my poly years came flowing into me. I really missed those wonderful time. I went back to TP a few days ago for studying, together with anoter TP graduate, Siewmei.

The first thing that the both of us talked about TP was, THE FOOD. yes yes, trust me. TP has fantastic food. They are so delicious that despite me eating for 3 years, I would still go back for more. Well, TP is still the same as it is, and our dear lecturers and tutors, they are all the same as they are.

Bumped into Lawrence Leong, my International Finance tutor. He's as funny as ever and as easy to talk to as ever. Very nice person. We sat and talked about how am I doing and how's everything with school. I consulted him a few times when I was in TP. I was going through a rough patch at that point in time. He has given me a lot of guidance in my studies. I was glad to know a lecturer like himself.

Tan Si Cheong, still as friendly as ever. He is the Mister Nice Guy who doesn't scold his students and that's why we always bully him. LOL. we're so bad. And his best friend Chan Seet Meng were even nicer to bully. hahaha. It really brings back to those time when I really had a lot of fun in school. I love TP.

Saw Goh Yan Peng but she seems busy so didn't really talk to her. So as Peter Ooi. But I've already catch up with them before at the Inaugural Alumni Dinner. They are very ncie teachers. I wished I could be like them. LOL. Maybe I should consider changing my profession....hahaha. Kiddin.

I really want to go back there again. Have nice chat with teachers. Have fun and laughter. Enjoy my poly life. Enjoy my youthful days. I make it sound like I'm damn old. But I really really really missed those times. My friends, the teachers, the food, the fun, and everything else, BUT PROJECTS AND EXAMS. =)

Miss TP. I'll visit you again soon.

Summary & Conclusion

People, if you happen to come across a pill that can make studying easier, please do let me know. I desperately need one. Oh yea, probably you can make some orders for my friends, ML and SM, I believe they need it too. LOL.

Recently I have been mugging hard for my exams (even though it wasn't really productive) and realised some bad habits about myself:
1. After lunch, I tend to feel sleepy and wants to sleep.
2. After dinner, no mood to study but have the mood to read magazine. Strange isn't it?
3. After sitting for too long, my butt hurts. The chairs are so uncomfortable and it makes me wanna walk around the library. So how is that supposed to help me in my studying?
4. Whatever I studied, I FORGOT!

Okay, somebody please tell me that I'm in deep shit. All right, exams are on next thursday and I really need to find my urge for studying. I have been trying to study both PoBF and Econs concurrently (I make it sound like I have a clone). And this is when SM said something that for once I have to agree that she is right. I am actually only studying 1/2 of both and only knows 1/2 of both and it is as good as hanging in the air with a breakable thread. Risky, tsk tsk tsk. So Risky. I didn't know I was a risk incline individual. I thought I was risk adverse. LOL. Econs....

Sigh...my week hasn't really been a good one. There were certainly some things that pissed me off but I've decided not to bring it up again since I have already said it countless time and I'm getting tired of repeating myself. So I choose to ignore. Spare my mind the agony. Books are already giving me a headache. Don't add on.

Bowling hasn't been good for me either. Listen, I don't know what happened to me or what is wrong with me. But I'm just not good enough and the thing that is making it worst, I'm detoriating. Not only my scores ain't good, my game isn't there as well. The feel is gone. Don't ask me why. If I knew what was the reason, I wouldn't be in this pinch now. I feel so lost for my bowling, for once. Especially when Singapore Open is around the corner. I really need to get back in shape.

*haiz* Work has never been easy. But since I choose it. I shall not complain. Anyways, promotion sounds good but it also means more work and responsibilities. I'm not too sure if I can take it but I'll still give it a shot to see how far can I go. But I've got a strong feeling that I won't be staying there for long.

In overall, my current condition is bad. I'm getting fatter each day as I munch unnecessay snacks during studying. My procrastination is hindering my productivity for studying. Bowling is giving me extra worries and pressure. Work is adding on to my headaches. Body is aching all over due to lack of exercise. Exams are approaching and my brain is starting to mulfuction even more.

Tell me, how can I jump accross this wall. Will I be able to get through my second year? Seriously I'm tired. Really. I'm so looking forward for my holiday trip with the girls. I'm starting to save money for that. After exams, WATCH ME! I'll make full use of my time to relax all I can.

Okay, my post looks a little longer than usual. Should get back to study, tomorrow. =)

Memories From The Past

Although I know I can never run away from you unless I stop bowling, seeing you again is really ain't a good thing. I do not wish to recall memories from the past and I don't need anything or anyone to trigger that part of me, that has been asleep for quite sometime.

All right, I'll stop talking about it and so that I can conveniently forget about it. It seems like you and me will not be training at the same venue anymore. That is a blessing for me because at the moment I really do not want to see you at all until I know that my eyes will never wonder off to you anymore.

Besides, I really need to focus on my exams now as I am starting to feel stress because I am really not prepared at all. So not prepared. I cannot afford to fail. I need to put in more effort and I really need to do well for my exams. Do not wish to disappoint my parent.

Laptop, animes, mangas, blogs has been a distraction for me. Work load is getting heavier each time and things really ain't going smooth. Sometimes I feel that I may just collapse at any time. Right now, everything is already so difficult for me. So, YOU! stop making things worst. But oh well, it's not your fault since you know nothing about it. lol.

Okay, need to work in the morning tomorrow and this is damn freaking tiring. I want time to freeze man. JUST FREEZE THE TIME! How I wish I was blessed with some supernatural power where I can teleport through space and freeze time. Jeez. I'm insane.