Was having a little chat with my dad today, regarding my life up till now, the choices I made, my future plans and my present moment. I realised many things that I have long forgotten about. Since I have been too busy with my work, training and studies. It seems that I didn't even have time to slow down my footsteps and take a look around my surroundings. How beautiful life can be.
While in the car driving out for dinner, me on my ipod, I started to think back to those days when I can start to remember things until now. I laughed. Good and bad memories. There were many tough times and I had my own problems as well, I'm surprised how much I endured it and that really makes who I am today. I'm grateful.
My friend today mentioned that she once cried really badly was because she had a quarrell with her bf. I can understand that. She resembles very much like one of my bowling/poly friends. In fact, I would say they are pretty similiar in terms of their relationship. So, I told her my friend's story. She might picked up something from there.
At the end of the day, every obstacle met is a lesson learnt. It is a life's journey that we have embarked on the very moment we were brought to life. How we colour it is up to us. Life, is already so fragile. Treasure it. We live and we learn. I learn from my family, my peers, my seniors and my own mistakes.
Well, it good to take a break once in a while and relax when it is really needed. Today's studying session is really fun. ML seldoms open up to the people around her. Especially me. Some how, some where, I know that I'm not that reliable when comes to relationship. I had my problems with that as well. But I was glad that she started talking more and at least, today her laughter and smiles were from the bottom of her heart.
Guess it's time for me to wrap up and end my post. To my friends out there, have a good week ahead, rest well and take care. Start thinking about your future and your life if you have spare time. >.< To SM, ML and TS: we'd better study hard and pass our exams. Anyway, we will get through this together.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Messed Up Spirit
It is already mid-april, i'm starting to panic for my exams...for once in my studying life, i'm worried for my exams. So can you guess how screwed am i now.
Despite saying that, my mind doesn't seem to have the concentration that i need for my studies...why is that so? I wish someone could answer me. I really wanted to revise but every time i see my books, i feel like sleeping. Is it the environment? the weather? or is it me?
I'm always feeling sleepy, tired and restless. Exhausted. what should i do now? take a break? change an environment? or a change in my studying methods? Jeez, i really need to revise. I wanna pass my second year.
Let's do my best. She-na, dont give up! oshi oshi oshi!
Despite saying that, my mind doesn't seem to have the concentration that i need for my studies...why is that so? I wish someone could answer me. I really wanted to revise but every time i see my books, i feel like sleeping. Is it the environment? the weather? or is it me?
I'm always feeling sleepy, tired and restless. Exhausted. what should i do now? take a break? change an environment? or a change in my studying methods? Jeez, i really need to revise. I wanna pass my second year.
Let's do my best. She-na, dont give up! oshi oshi oshi!
Mind Over Mind
Exams dates are drawing close, my revision is not anywhere near complete and my procrastination is still dominating me all these time. I'm so not in shape for studies. Jeez, Is there any remedy for that? Give me some smart pills so I can vomit my answers in exams like our Singapore icon, Merlion.
Corporate Finance: Too much theory to remember and the calculations are tedious. Not one mistake can be made. Guess what, i've only complete 1 chapter out of 9 chapters. AND! i'm dropping 2 chapters so that makes it 7 chapters in total. zomg, I really need to buck up.
Microeconomics: A lot of graphs and formulas. A total of 11 chapters with 2 chapters essay writting. I'm gonna drop one chapter that I really hated the most and that makes 10 chapters. hmmm, I guess i've only completed 5 chapters. You know what, econs is my first paper and I'm so not ready for it....zzzzzzzzz
Principles of Banking and Finance: ah ah ah, this is one whole chunk of theories that talks about history of the banking system that goes all the way back to A.D period. Answers need not be complicated but the structure of answering is important. It determines whether you can pass or not. The best thing is I've only completed 1 chapter out of 10 chapters maybe?! and this is also my first paper. 2 papers in a day, die.
Financial Reporting: This is has never been a problem for me. Practice is all I need. =)
Haiz, so how now brow cow? I hope that I can get through this year smoothly. This is no longer a mind over body, it mind over mind. Determination. Ganbatte!
Corporate Finance: Too much theory to remember and the calculations are tedious. Not one mistake can be made. Guess what, i've only complete 1 chapter out of 9 chapters. AND! i'm dropping 2 chapters so that makes it 7 chapters in total. zomg, I really need to buck up.
Microeconomics: A lot of graphs and formulas. A total of 11 chapters with 2 chapters essay writting. I'm gonna drop one chapter that I really hated the most and that makes 10 chapters. hmmm, I guess i've only completed 5 chapters. You know what, econs is my first paper and I'm so not ready for it....zzzzzzzzz
Principles of Banking and Finance: ah ah ah, this is one whole chunk of theories that talks about history of the banking system that goes all the way back to A.D period. Answers need not be complicated but the structure of answering is important. It determines whether you can pass or not. The best thing is I've only completed 1 chapter out of 10 chapters maybe?! and this is also my first paper. 2 papers in a day, die.
Financial Reporting: This is has never been a problem for me. Practice is all I need. =)
Haiz, so how now brow cow? I hope that I can get through this year smoothly. This is no longer a mind over body, it mind over mind. Determination. Ganbatte!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Values Of A Friend
The love of a friend is like no other
This kind of love is not the kind that smoothers
It teaches us that we need to give more than get
And that friendship is not something to forget
The love of a friendship will grow with time
And will continue throughout your prime
The love of a friend is unselfish and kind
It is truely a treasure to find
It takes constant attention and care
But if you've found the love of friendship surely you'll share
Lots of people need the love of friendship in their lives
So find a person in whim love will thrive.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Other Side Of Light
Bowling kinda sucks recently. Game is there but my scores ain't showing the results when sometimes, results is what matters most. I'm trying to get hold of myself and figure things out slowly for the time being as my mind is preoccupied with my studies and exams. I'm so filled with so many things I feel like i'm already at the brim, about to explode anytime soon.
Speaking about bowling and scores, I feel insecure. Towards many many things. But on second thought, these things are unimportant. It's not necessary neither it is something I should concern myself with. It perhaps something to do with my perception and feelings.
Personally, I have never like the idea of sucking up to anyone. But when I see my friends doing that, it makes me feel sick and tired. But, it has nothing to do with me, right? So why am I bothered about it? I would love to know why too.
They are all my circle of friends, but when this happens, I really feel like distanting myself from them until all these cools down, then i'll return. But, where's the meaning to that? They are my friends afterall, so what if they are sucking up to each other? It has nothing to do with you, they are still your friends, someone you know for as long as it takes. Is it worth ruining it over this one person? who is just, the centre of attraction at the moment?
I don't know, don't wanna know. I can overlook it like I normally do. I can choose not be affected by it. I can always not get myself involved. Geez, now I can barely understand what my heart feels. Perhaps, I should just ignore it. Is that a good idea? Hell yea =)
I'm so tired talking about them. It makes feel so tired when discussing about these people. So tired with them.
Speaking about bowling and scores, I feel insecure. Towards many many things. But on second thought, these things are unimportant. It's not necessary neither it is something I should concern myself with. It perhaps something to do with my perception and feelings.
Personally, I have never like the idea of sucking up to anyone. But when I see my friends doing that, it makes me feel sick and tired. But, it has nothing to do with me, right? So why am I bothered about it? I would love to know why too.
They are all my circle of friends, but when this happens, I really feel like distanting myself from them until all these cools down, then i'll return. But, where's the meaning to that? They are my friends afterall, so what if they are sucking up to each other? It has nothing to do with you, they are still your friends, someone you know for as long as it takes. Is it worth ruining it over this one person? who is just, the centre of attraction at the moment?
I don't know, don't wanna know. I can overlook it like I normally do. I can choose not be affected by it. I can always not get myself involved. Geez, now I can barely understand what my heart feels. Perhaps, I should just ignore it. Is that a good idea? Hell yea =)
I'm so tired talking about them. It makes feel so tired when discussing about these people. So tired with them.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Refusal
look, my family is getting paraniod over some irrelevant issues here. This makes me even more withdrawn then usual.
My mother was just having a conversation with me not long ago in regards to BGR. Well, it seems like she have some issues with some of the male friends that i'm hanging out with and that really puts me off. Especially when comes to those 2 guys she hated the most. (I havent been in contact with either of them, so no problems)
Well, i havent been into a relationship neither have been to dates. But seriously, i dont see any importance in being in a BGR. Why can't she stop thinking so much over it. It comes when it comes, why bother? I'm still young and what's the problem of not having a boyfriend?
She told me that this guy is not bad, this one okay, this one we will not disapprove and etc... oh my gosh, do i look like some old hag or what? and worst is she is speaking about marriage.... =_='''
Look here, i'm fine with my life now. I worked, I study and I still train. My schedule is tight and my life is busy. I hardly even have time for my friends, animes and mangas. Let alone for boyfriend. I don't really need one.
On second thought, I would rather not have a boyfriend and live my carefree and easy-going life. No need to worry or get myself involved with my emotions that sometimes may turn out to be hard to control. I do not wish to lie in bed and fret over every little things that affects me.
I strongly believe that I'm able to support my parents and myself fairly well in the future, and that I don't need to have some guy to help me support my parents. I'm fine being by myself.
It's not that I had some terrible experiences with guys, all my male friends out there, you are still my friend, no worries =) is not like i hate you guys or something. Perhaps I'm too independent on my own, and have different perception in regards to BGR.
I really don't mind being single. When will my parents understand that? oh yea, by the way, not having a boyfriend doesn't mean that I SWING THAT WAY... i'm a perfectly straight girl here ok!
Damn, signing off.
Mata Ne!
My mother was just having a conversation with me not long ago in regards to BGR. Well, it seems like she have some issues with some of the male friends that i'm hanging out with and that really puts me off. Especially when comes to those 2 guys she hated the most. (I havent been in contact with either of them, so no problems)
Well, i havent been into a relationship neither have been to dates. But seriously, i dont see any importance in being in a BGR. Why can't she stop thinking so much over it. It comes when it comes, why bother? I'm still young and what's the problem of not having a boyfriend?
She told me that this guy is not bad, this one okay, this one we will not disapprove and etc... oh my gosh, do i look like some old hag or what? and worst is she is speaking about marriage.... =_='''
Look here, i'm fine with my life now. I worked, I study and I still train. My schedule is tight and my life is busy. I hardly even have time for my friends, animes and mangas. Let alone for boyfriend. I don't really need one.
On second thought, I would rather not have a boyfriend and live my carefree and easy-going life. No need to worry or get myself involved with my emotions that sometimes may turn out to be hard to control. I do not wish to lie in bed and fret over every little things that affects me.
I strongly believe that I'm able to support my parents and myself fairly well in the future, and that I don't need to have some guy to help me support my parents. I'm fine being by myself.
It's not that I had some terrible experiences with guys, all my male friends out there, you are still my friend, no worries =) is not like i hate you guys or something. Perhaps I'm too independent on my own, and have different perception in regards to BGR.
I really don't mind being single. When will my parents understand that? oh yea, by the way, not having a boyfriend doesn't mean that I SWING THAT WAY... i'm a perfectly straight girl here ok!
Damn, signing off.
Mata Ne!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Dances To The Melody
My mood has been pretty good these few days and that is solely because ALL THE NEW ANIME SEASONS ARE OUT!!!!!!!!
Oh my gosh, it seems like there is a little bit of a continuation from Tsubasa Tokyo Revelation and that is the Tsubasa Shunraiki. After the 2nd season of Tsubasa Chronicles, i feel so sad that the story is not complete. When Tokyo Revelations came out i was so happy but it has only 3 ovas. Now Shunraiki is out =) i hope that it will continue from there. The love between sakura and syaoran is sooooo sweet, and i like the mystery that connects yuuko san from xxxholic, Rei from sakura card captor, fuuma from X. There were many more other characters involved but I forgot their names. =)
Apart from that, my favourite classical music animes are out too. Although i was delighted when there is a second season for Nodame Cantabile which is the Paris Chapter, was kinda sad for La Corda D'oro Primma Passo as it was another fantastic music anime after Nodame. FINALLY the second season is out and i'm able to hear the beautiful and relaxing classical pieces they are playing. It's called the La Corda D'oro Secondo Passo. Love it to the max!!!!
Oh well, speaking about xxxholic, their third season are out after xxxHoLiC Kei it is the xxxHoLiC Shunmuki. I simply love these animes...hope they produce more, of course with good storyline and plot.
Oh yea, there was another new anime that came out, that is Genji Monogatari Sennenki. In my previous post, I did mention on the manga Gekka no Kimi that follows after a non-fiction novel Tale of Genji, this has been made into an anime. Monogatari = Tale and Sennenki = 1000 years chapter. Hikaru Genji = main lead. I just started watching the first episode. Half way through, but it was not bad...kinda like it. =) same as the stor that i read from Gekka no Kimi.
This has been a happy week for me when there are so many animes that are available for streaming, although bleach 213 kinda disappointed me, I still love watching animes...=))
And i've just read the First Girl manga...and I thought I fell in love with TANGO!!!! got the urge to dance tango!! though i believed i will trip and fall to my death or step my partner's toe till it breaks, lol...well, u see i'm not a very good dancer....will brush up on it if needed. =)))) i don't mind my partner to be Leon Rosas...hhahaha, since he is soooo cooooolll... the story a bit sad, esp the part when marianna died. I ALMOST CRIED!!!!
ooookkk, i better stop here, am bowling in the 3pm squad tmr for NMC and i still have school in the morning from 930 to 1pm. oh my tian, i wish i had super powers like telepotation so i dun have to rush my ass from one place to the other...
O-Yasumi-Nasai!!!
Ja Ne!
Oh my gosh, it seems like there is a little bit of a continuation from Tsubasa Tokyo Revelation and that is the Tsubasa Shunraiki. After the 2nd season of Tsubasa Chronicles, i feel so sad that the story is not complete. When Tokyo Revelations came out i was so happy but it has only 3 ovas. Now Shunraiki is out =) i hope that it will continue from there. The love between sakura and syaoran is sooooo sweet, and i like the mystery that connects yuuko san from xxxholic, Rei from sakura card captor, fuuma from X. There were many more other characters involved but I forgot their names. =)
Apart from that, my favourite classical music animes are out too. Although i was delighted when there is a second season for Nodame Cantabile which is the Paris Chapter, was kinda sad for La Corda D'oro Primma Passo as it was another fantastic music anime after Nodame. FINALLY the second season is out and i'm able to hear the beautiful and relaxing classical pieces they are playing. It's called the La Corda D'oro Secondo Passo. Love it to the max!!!!
Oh well, speaking about xxxholic, their third season are out after xxxHoLiC Kei it is the xxxHoLiC Shunmuki. I simply love these animes...hope they produce more, of course with good storyline and plot.
Oh yea, there was another new anime that came out, that is Genji Monogatari Sennenki. In my previous post, I did mention on the manga Gekka no Kimi that follows after a non-fiction novel Tale of Genji, this has been made into an anime. Monogatari = Tale and Sennenki = 1000 years chapter. Hikaru Genji = main lead. I just started watching the first episode. Half way through, but it was not bad...kinda like it. =) same as the stor that i read from Gekka no Kimi.
This has been a happy week for me when there are so many animes that are available for streaming, although bleach 213 kinda disappointed me, I still love watching animes...=))
And i've just read the First Girl manga...and I thought I fell in love with TANGO!!!! got the urge to dance tango!! though i believed i will trip and fall to my death or step my partner's toe till it breaks, lol...well, u see i'm not a very good dancer....will brush up on it if needed. =)))) i don't mind my partner to be Leon Rosas...hhahaha, since he is soooo cooooolll... the story a bit sad, esp the part when marianna died. I ALMOST CRIED!!!!
ooookkk, i better stop here, am bowling in the 3pm squad tmr for NMC and i still have school in the morning from 930 to 1pm. oh my tian, i wish i had super powers like telepotation so i dun have to rush my ass from one place to the other...
O-Yasumi-Nasai!!!
Ja Ne!
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