Yea yea yea, okay i know i know so stop reminding me people. exams are around the corner and guess what, i did not even do my tutorials and essays let alone to flip through my notes to start my revision. ggxx. i know how screwed i am now so stop stressing me any further. besides it is a super challenging task to match siewmei's, maylou's and my schedules together to find common days for group study. we are all so busy with work and the both them with their boyfriends. -_-''
Siewmei says she is gonna come out with some spreadsheet thingy for the 3 of us so that we could come together to study. awesome! and also, maylou told me the other day she has already started studying. zomg. and just a few days ago i discovered from my classmates, they have ALL started their REVISION! omg. and so, what am i doing here, at seimpi school of music, working my ass off for? well, for my pocket money obviously :) smiles. but still, studies are important. yea boy, i need to buck up.
the first step to get me into this is to find my source of motivation, which obviously is something i did not have at the first place for studies, and also self discipline which is also something really challenging for me. there are too many temptations around, like sleep, manga, animes, eat and maybe to chill out with friends. all these are never ending. *sigh*
so the morale of the story is, i need to start studying real soon. at first i was thinking of starting after chinese new year, but it is not quite possible given my current situation and because i am just tooooooo lazy to dooooo anything. argh! where's my drive?!?!?!? still finding still finding..
alright, i will go home and study after work today.
awesome.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Some things
It has been donkey years since I last went to a movie with my PARENTS! awesome right. I know. The last time I watched a movie with the both of them (according to my dad) was when I was oly 2 years old. Tell me, how am I supposed to remember something like that?! OMG, I was only 2 years old darling.
The only time I could remember going to a movie with my mother was when I was in primary school. Very certain but don't know which year was it. The movie we wateched was Lion King, the Pride Rock. Awesome! Up till now, I still love that movie. I can recite the entire plot for you at the back of my memory. If only I put that into my studies, I would have been a scholar. yea right!
We are going to watch Avatar 3D and even though I have already watched this show with Steffi, weewee and the others, I still wanna watch it again. Of course the other time I watched 2d because 3D ran out of seats. Besides, my dad is sponsoring my movie ticket for today, so why not! **Smiles**
Anyway, we are going to downtown east to catch a 950pm show and my dad did not know that we could book online. He is a moutain tortise but that what makes him funny and it is so like my dad. SO CUTE!!! yea right....my backside.
So the show is gonna end around say 1am?! and i need to work tomorrow morning at 830am. Ong She-na, well done. G Game. Some more I still have many issues I need to deal with tomorrow and my sunday teachers have been giving me hell a lot of problems and they have been falling sick for god knows what reason that it may be.
Off I go now to a movie with my parents.
The only time I could remember going to a movie with my mother was when I was in primary school. Very certain but don't know which year was it. The movie we wateched was Lion King, the Pride Rock. Awesome! Up till now, I still love that movie. I can recite the entire plot for you at the back of my memory. If only I put that into my studies, I would have been a scholar. yea right!
We are going to watch Avatar 3D and even though I have already watched this show with Steffi, weewee and the others, I still wanna watch it again. Of course the other time I watched 2d because 3D ran out of seats. Besides, my dad is sponsoring my movie ticket for today, so why not! **Smiles**
Anyway, we are going to downtown east to catch a 950pm show and my dad did not know that we could book online. He is a moutain tortise but that what makes him funny and it is so like my dad. SO CUTE!!! yea right....my backside.
So the show is gonna end around say 1am?! and i need to work tomorrow morning at 830am. Ong She-na, well done. G Game. Some more I still have many issues I need to deal with tomorrow and my sunday teachers have been giving me hell a lot of problems and they have been falling sick for god knows what reason that it may be.
Off I go now to a movie with my parents.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Look Around Me :)
still browsing on his photos and i thought how nice it must have been. and then when i slowly recall, he did told me this plan of his once in his car. his plans to do countdown elsewhere instead of singapore. indeed, he made his dreams come true and of places he choose japan. well, i'm not implying that he cannot go since it is his freedom. but why of all places, his first stop has to be japan. nevermind me. i'm just annoyed. thinking that he just wanted some one or any one to acompany hm to fulfil this dream of his. it was just last year november, after my nepal trip, that he asked me out and he just gotten himself a girlfriend before christmas eve. say, guy changes mind pretty fast isn't it? it just within weeks and he still dare to tell me he would do anything for us to be together. bullcrap. honestly, their words, as sweet as it is, contains more lies than truth in it.
and then after looking at how happy they are and i knew instantly that they are creating happy memories and then i decided to browse through my own photos. i laughed. laugh at my own stupidity and also at those photos. me too, had my fun although it is not that romantic kind of fun but it is the warmth, jokes, laughter, friends, and all those silly things we did, that makes the best out of everything. i know that i am not alone. for the past few days, those times when i thought that i was lonely without you, i was wrong. i wasn't. i had my friends, who stood by me in rough, happy and wild times. these friends, have never once turn me down when i needed them. although they may be busy with the boyfriends and girlfriends or even bowling, studies and work, we still spend our holidays together doing crazy things. from birthdays to gatherings to holiday trip and to festive party, they are always there :) awesome friends i have.
i looked at all those photos and remembered what we all did, i smiled again. thinking back how much laughter they have brought into my life and the bond that we have that can never be shaken easily. well, i have to admit that some of them suffered more from my nonsense and my non-stop grumbling about so many things from bowling to my bitches and to my studies. surprisingly, they have never gotten sick of it and still willingly listens to all my nagging and complains. say, aren't they awesome?! i really love my friends.
after looking at my photos, i looked through my own albums and realised that i had my own adventure too. *so what you have your tokyo adventure* anyway, i have been to places that i really love, for example: JAPAN!!!! although i have to admit that i felt a bit lonel because my dad and mum were like a bit lovey dovey and i don't have siblings to play with and i don't enjoy talking to strangers so i always end up entertaining myself. even though i am already used to entertaining myself since young, but still, it is bored. however i still love it. it is hard for my family to get together often even though it is just the 3 of us and because of my work and studies, my dad's working and golf and my mum's mahjong. it's rare for all of us to travel around especially i am already not young anymore and probably does not enjoy travelling with a family. but hey, i really enjoyed all the times i spent with my family.
and so i know, i am always surronded by wonderful people. shouldnt be too involved in my own feelings for something else. i have enough and have nothing more to ask =)
and then after looking at how happy they are and i knew instantly that they are creating happy memories and then i decided to browse through my own photos. i laughed. laugh at my own stupidity and also at those photos. me too, had my fun although it is not that romantic kind of fun but it is the warmth, jokes, laughter, friends, and all those silly things we did, that makes the best out of everything. i know that i am not alone. for the past few days, those times when i thought that i was lonely without you, i was wrong. i wasn't. i had my friends, who stood by me in rough, happy and wild times. these friends, have never once turn me down when i needed them. although they may be busy with the boyfriends and girlfriends or even bowling, studies and work, we still spend our holidays together doing crazy things. from birthdays to gatherings to holiday trip and to festive party, they are always there :) awesome friends i have.
i looked at all those photos and remembered what we all did, i smiled again. thinking back how much laughter they have brought into my life and the bond that we have that can never be shaken easily. well, i have to admit that some of them suffered more from my nonsense and my non-stop grumbling about so many things from bowling to my bitches and to my studies. surprisingly, they have never gotten sick of it and still willingly listens to all my nagging and complains. say, aren't they awesome?! i really love my friends.
after looking at my photos, i looked through my own albums and realised that i had my own adventure too. *so what you have your tokyo adventure* anyway, i have been to places that i really love, for example: JAPAN!!!! although i have to admit that i felt a bit lonel because my dad and mum were like a bit lovey dovey and i don't have siblings to play with and i don't enjoy talking to strangers so i always end up entertaining myself. even though i am already used to entertaining myself since young, but still, it is bored. however i still love it. it is hard for my family to get together often even though it is just the 3 of us and because of my work and studies, my dad's working and golf and my mum's mahjong. it's rare for all of us to travel around especially i am already not young anymore and probably does not enjoy travelling with a family. but hey, i really enjoyed all the times i spent with my family.
and so i know, i am always surronded by wonderful people. shouldnt be too involved in my own feelings for something else. i have enough and have nothing more to ask =)
Monday, January 18, 2010
Easy going is cool~
Dragged myself off the bed this morning and skipped breakfast all just because of the buffet later at Suntec.
Met up with Siewmei at tamp control station and had a japanese old lady who could speak fluent english asking me for directions. Out of all people in the crowd, she approached me. awesome isn't it. it seems like i always have this "LOOK" that strangers will tend to approach for me to ask for directions and stuff when actually i'm bad in directions myself. and, friends say first impression of my is dao and stuck up, so why are there still people coming to be if i had that scary look? weird.
Whack don't know how many plates of fish paste :) yum yum yum. the fish paste there is my all time favourite. of course there were the mantous, chestnut cake and the nian gao...omg...ggxx super suepr full. had the sense of satisfaction.
when over to PS to do some shopping here and there and bought same stuff for my over-flowing dvds and vcds. damn, need to pack my room soon before mother starts yelling at me since CNY is around the corner. what a chore!
bad news: HOKKAIDO trip may be CANCELLED. because 1. JAL is going bankrupt. 2. not enough people to sign up for the trip. God, do you need to be so cruel to me? I really want to go Japan to enjoy myself and get the freaking out of this country once in a while. Never mind, daddy will tell me the outcome tomorrow.
Good news: i have recovered 4 folders from Siewmei's ext hdd. Awesome shit. But there were some jpegs/photos that i could not open with my laptop. but oh well, at least i knew i recovered some of her movies like 17again or something like that. Alright, will continue the recovery tomorrow since I cannot do the recovery anymore today.
Anyway, took a super long bus ride home from PS. at times like this, i love long bus ride with my ipod on and my mind in a blank. it gives me an excuse to think about many things about the past, present and the future. don't worry, i'm a tough girl. Will get by some how.
Tomorrow will be a freaking long day. Had school from 930am ro 530pm. OMG! and after that worked from 615pm to 915pm. PENGZ. i'm so gonna collapsed tomorrow.
Signing off......
Met up with Siewmei at tamp control station and had a japanese old lady who could speak fluent english asking me for directions. Out of all people in the crowd, she approached me. awesome isn't it. it seems like i always have this "LOOK" that strangers will tend to approach for me to ask for directions and stuff when actually i'm bad in directions myself. and, friends say first impression of my is dao and stuck up, so why are there still people coming to be if i had that scary look? weird.
Whack don't know how many plates of fish paste :) yum yum yum. the fish paste there is my all time favourite. of course there were the mantous, chestnut cake and the nian gao...omg...ggxx super suepr full. had the sense of satisfaction.
when over to PS to do some shopping here and there and bought same stuff for my over-flowing dvds and vcds. damn, need to pack my room soon before mother starts yelling at me since CNY is around the corner. what a chore!
bad news: HOKKAIDO trip may be CANCELLED. because 1. JAL is going bankrupt. 2. not enough people to sign up for the trip. God, do you need to be so cruel to me? I really want to go Japan to enjoy myself and get the freaking out of this country once in a while. Never mind, daddy will tell me the outcome tomorrow.
Good news: i have recovered 4 folders from Siewmei's ext hdd. Awesome shit. But there were some jpegs/photos that i could not open with my laptop. but oh well, at least i knew i recovered some of her movies like 17again or something like that. Alright, will continue the recovery tomorrow since I cannot do the recovery anymore today.
Anyway, took a super long bus ride home from PS. at times like this, i love long bus ride with my ipod on and my mind in a blank. it gives me an excuse to think about many things about the past, present and the future. don't worry, i'm a tough girl. Will get by some how.
Tomorrow will be a freaking long day. Had school from 930am ro 530pm. OMG! and after that worked from 615pm to 915pm. PENGZ. i'm so gonna collapsed tomorrow.
Signing off......
Sometimes...
A very bad habit of mine, i would just click on his profile on facebook to check out what is he doing and how is everything. not too sure by doing so what is that i want to find out. sometimes i asked myself, why bother checking up on him? but i have never honestly answered my own question and even till today i clearly know that i am always running away.
i'm not going to say that i envy them now and i'm not going to say that i regretted not taking his hand back then. but, i cannot deny that my heart is aching. why? i don't know. i wish i know. put it this way, i want to know too. it is easy to read others and understand what others are thinking, but i guess at the end of the day, the only person you don't really know is yourself. for me, i guess it is this way for me.
he is now with this quite sweet looking girl who seems to really loves him a lot and he seems to love her a lot too. good for them and that was what i have always wished for. hoping that everything would end between us since long ago. but then, why is my heart still aching. maybe because it's the time of the month and i'm feeling emo again.
i saw his pictures and they are travelling around tokyo, japan for new year count down. sweet. it is something he would do since he is the romantic type of person and he always has a glib tongue and somehow or rather you would end up following whatever he says. perhaps, that was one of the reasons why i would agree to date him back then.
looking back, perhaps he was my first love. from that very day when he asked me out and listening to his dreams and wishes, i knew that this man will be a successful man in the future. he's smart, not too bad looking and he has everything a girl may want, an ideal partner but somehow ever since then i have always doubted him.
apparently back then everything is not serious at all. probably i was the only one who fell quite deep for it but that is what a player is good at isn't it? he left me for another girl whom happens to be one of my good friend. he hops from girls to girls and you could guess how many girls' heart he has broken and how many i don't know if he ever tried to fix them.
did i really lose him for good? i really don't know man. i wish he could tell me that he was just playing around so that i could at least bury this and so i will never have this habit of looking at his fb pofile. thinking back, probably he was the caused why i don't really trusts guys even till now, always guarding my heart so that i won't walk into the same situation again.
when browsing through his photos, i wondered what if i have taken his hand back then, he girl standing there now would it still be her or me? or would it be, 10 years down and he who's a player and wil hurt this girl now like what he did in the past, and will i, still be thinking, what if 10 years down, that person who will be hurt would still be her or me?
i hope that this all nonsense are just becases it is the time of the month and i'm just having some terrible mood swing. wake up tomorrow and forget about everything. sometimes, having a short term memory may be a good thing. take my memories away, so that i dun have to remember how it feels. Also, all the promises that he made and all those words he said, take it back. it would definitely make me feel better. although he was not the one at fault because it was me who pushed away his hands.
i'm not going to say that i envy them now and i'm not going to say that i regretted not taking his hand back then. but, i cannot deny that my heart is aching. why? i don't know. i wish i know. put it this way, i want to know too. it is easy to read others and understand what others are thinking, but i guess at the end of the day, the only person you don't really know is yourself. for me, i guess it is this way for me.
he is now with this quite sweet looking girl who seems to really loves him a lot and he seems to love her a lot too. good for them and that was what i have always wished for. hoping that everything would end between us since long ago. but then, why is my heart still aching. maybe because it's the time of the month and i'm feeling emo again.
i saw his pictures and they are travelling around tokyo, japan for new year count down. sweet. it is something he would do since he is the romantic type of person and he always has a glib tongue and somehow or rather you would end up following whatever he says. perhaps, that was one of the reasons why i would agree to date him back then.
looking back, perhaps he was my first love. from that very day when he asked me out and listening to his dreams and wishes, i knew that this man will be a successful man in the future. he's smart, not too bad looking and he has everything a girl may want, an ideal partner but somehow ever since then i have always doubted him.
apparently back then everything is not serious at all. probably i was the only one who fell quite deep for it but that is what a player is good at isn't it? he left me for another girl whom happens to be one of my good friend. he hops from girls to girls and you could guess how many girls' heart he has broken and how many i don't know if he ever tried to fix them.
did i really lose him for good? i really don't know man. i wish he could tell me that he was just playing around so that i could at least bury this and so i will never have this habit of looking at his fb pofile. thinking back, probably he was the caused why i don't really trusts guys even till now, always guarding my heart so that i won't walk into the same situation again.
when browsing through his photos, i wondered what if i have taken his hand back then, he girl standing there now would it still be her or me? or would it be, 10 years down and he who's a player and wil hurt this girl now like what he did in the past, and will i, still be thinking, what if 10 years down, that person who will be hurt would still be her or me?
i hope that this all nonsense are just becases it is the time of the month and i'm just having some terrible mood swing. wake up tomorrow and forget about everything. sometimes, having a short term memory may be a good thing. take my memories away, so that i dun have to remember how it feels. Also, all the promises that he made and all those words he said, take it back. it would definitely make me feel better. although he was not the one at fault because it was me who pushed away his hands.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Bad Mood: Do Not Disturb
As the title says, indeed, I am in a freaking bad mood now. Kind Siewmei has lent me her external pink maxtor 250GB external hard drive and now, I am not too sure if I am giving the external hard drive problems, or the other way round. However, I only know that the conculsion is, this is not the ideal situation that I should be in. Fuck it. Seriously, when is wrong with all these complicated devices when they are supposed to make life easier for mankind.
nb. Fucking pissed now. What's worst. when I tried to restart my laptop, there is this whole string of words that only god can understand that and before I knew it, in a few minutes, ALL THE DATA IN SIEWMEI'S HARD DRIVES WENT MISSING!!!! oh yes yes, I am in deep shit now. YES I KNOW SO STOP TELLING ME THAT. oh my fuck, what is wrong my electronic devices these days. If you wanna pms, pick another day you doo doo.
Die.When I tried to open the file using my desktop, only my folder is there and 3/4 of my animes just vanished into thin thin air. Yea, the air is so think it's suffocating. nb. screw it man. Hopefully, god will be nicer to me and please direct me to find the best solution. At least let me recover all the data. I should have back it up. But then again, if I have the memory space to do back up then I wouldn't even need to borrow Siewmei's external hard drive. Well done Ong She-na. Good job man. You are so screwed. Dead Duck.
Once again. Fuck it. Anyway, I have to go back fixing the drives. nb.
later.
nb. Fucking pissed now. What's worst. when I tried to restart my laptop, there is this whole string of words that only god can understand that and before I knew it, in a few minutes, ALL THE DATA IN SIEWMEI'S HARD DRIVES WENT MISSING!!!! oh yes yes, I am in deep shit now. YES I KNOW SO STOP TELLING ME THAT. oh my fuck, what is wrong my electronic devices these days. If you wanna pms, pick another day you doo doo.
Die.When I tried to open the file using my desktop, only my folder is there and 3/4 of my animes just vanished into thin thin air. Yea, the air is so think it's suffocating. nb. screw it man. Hopefully, god will be nicer to me and please direct me to find the best solution. At least let me recover all the data. I should have back it up. But then again, if I have the memory space to do back up then I wouldn't even need to borrow Siewmei's external hard drive. Well done Ong She-na. Good job man. You are so screwed. Dead Duck.
Once again. Fuck it. Anyway, I have to go back fixing the drives. nb.
later.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
It Goes Like This...
Alright, let's say "WELCOME TO 2010!". I know that's a bit too late since it has already been more than a week after we have welcomed the new year some time back.
So with the new year here, there is also a new year resolution. It is only recently that I have decided on my new year resolution and I will try my best to meet my own expectations. *smiles*
Year 2010 Resolution:
1. Pay more attention and not to fall asleep in class. *this is a little challenging because books ain't my best friends at all.
2. Study REAL HARD for my upcoming mock tests in march and exams in may. *i don't wanna repeat another year.
3. Increase Seimpi Parkway student enrolment by 50 students by the end of May. *awesome right? i'm referring to net intake meaning including termination.
4. Get myself a suitable auditing job and free my weekends for rest and play. *not quite possible at the moment but still trying.
5. Lose at least 5kg by the end of the year. *since i've stopped bowling means no more exercising, i'd better watch my weight and figure. besides it's pretty manageable.
6. To learn at least 3 more pieces of new piano songs from my teachers. *i have already conquered [i'll be there by jackson 5]. now attempting [everything i do by bryan adams].
7. Be a nice person. *although i'm always nice :)
I think that's all to it. Maybe I should add something like learning how to cook and etc... but on second thought i'd better not list that down because the probability of me doing that is nearly impossible. The other things is i want to travel. But then again, it is not possible because my schedule is always so tight and i'm always so busy. Having said that, perhaps it is time for me to do some catching up with some of my old friends. It has been a while since i last comunicate with them. Wonder how are they doing now.
It is also time for the few of us to go sentosa for a break, go sing k after harping on it for so long and never once really get it done, go play l4d2 and make a fool of ourselves and probably can hear steffi cursing and swearing, and play mahjong since we have talking about it and it never came true.
exams are coming... are coming... are coming.. exams are coming... and i'm so not nervous. that is not really a good sign. I am getting anxious because i am not anxious about my exams. *sigh* Really need to start to motivate myself a bit more to study harder. She-na Ganbatte! Fighting!
So with the new year here, there is also a new year resolution. It is only recently that I have decided on my new year resolution and I will try my best to meet my own expectations. *smiles*
Year 2010 Resolution:
1. Pay more attention and not to fall asleep in class. *this is a little challenging because books ain't my best friends at all.
2. Study REAL HARD for my upcoming mock tests in march and exams in may. *i don't wanna repeat another year.
3. Increase Seimpi Parkway student enrolment by 50 students by the end of May. *awesome right? i'm referring to net intake meaning including termination.
4. Get myself a suitable auditing job and free my weekends for rest and play. *not quite possible at the moment but still trying.
5. Lose at least 5kg by the end of the year. *since i've stopped bowling means no more exercising, i'd better watch my weight and figure. besides it's pretty manageable.
6. To learn at least 3 more pieces of new piano songs from my teachers. *i have already conquered [i'll be there by jackson 5]. now attempting [everything i do by bryan adams].
7. Be a nice person. *although i'm always nice :)
I think that's all to it. Maybe I should add something like learning how to cook and etc... but on second thought i'd better not list that down because the probability of me doing that is nearly impossible. The other things is i want to travel. But then again, it is not possible because my schedule is always so tight and i'm always so busy. Having said that, perhaps it is time for me to do some catching up with some of my old friends. It has been a while since i last comunicate with them. Wonder how are they doing now.
It is also time for the few of us to go sentosa for a break, go sing k after harping on it for so long and never once really get it done, go play l4d2 and make a fool of ourselves and probably can hear steffi cursing and swearing, and play mahjong since we have talking about it and it never came true.
exams are coming... are coming... are coming.. exams are coming... and i'm so not nervous. that is not really a good sign. I am getting anxious because i am not anxious about my exams. *sigh* Really need to start to motivate myself a bit more to study harder. She-na Ganbatte! Fighting!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Renri no Eda
Manga: Renri no Eda
Genre: Josei, Tragedy, Romance, Drama
Status: Complete
My thoughts:
It has been so long since I last read such a good manga. Although the previous one that I read Cappuccino wasn't too bad as well. Nonetheless, I would say this is one of those mangas that I have read that could touch my heart so much that I cried while reading it. This just shows how awesome this manga is.
Seriously, this turns out better than I have expected. I was quite hestitant on reading it at first but looking at the ratings and it has only 4 chapters, I've decided to give it a try and I didn't regret reading it. It seems and looks so real that I can imagine the feelings the character feels inside me. I really couldnt stop my tears.
Now the storyline. Although it is a japanese artist but the story revolves around koreans. Amazing isn't it?
It talk about this charming playboy who brokes many girls heart, and couldnt stop going after for more girls since many couldnt resist his charm at all. Until this one faithful day, he met this girl at a bustop near a hospital and decided to pick her up.
He tried very hard in his very own ways to win this lady's heart only gradually to find himself falling deeply in love with her. He would do silly things just to make her smile at him. However, no matters how hard he tries, she never gives in and only insists to be friends. But that doesn't make him back down for her really loves her so much.
When he finally got her, the doctor who is in charge of his physical check up after his minor incident, break the news to him that he has a tumor near his heart and his life expectancy is short. He drives him into a corner so bad that he decided to break up with the lady but ended up finding out that she has lung problems and her days are numbered as well.
Despite knowing that their time together is short, the lady cut all contacts with him and even moved out from the hospital she is currently staying so as to avoid seeing him. He who really could not let go of this relationship after knowing his and her's condition, went through great lengths just to see her again. She finally agreed to start a relationship with him
Time is short but he manages to give her everything that she always wanted yet seems to be out of reached. They experienced happy moments and doing crazy things. Until the very end, he could not tell her that he has a tumor and has intended to hide it and to never let her know his condition. Because of his love for her, he does not wants to add on any worries since he has personally experienced how scary can death be and he doesnt want to put her through this again.
However, he never expected that the doctor in charge would break the news to her without him knowing. After she died, she left a telemessage that has preset it to be sent out after she passed away, in the message holds her final words, her feelings, and everything else that she knew and never told him about, including his condition.
That's how the story beautifully ended. It shows not only love between them but also their friends who constantly has been their support until the very end and how important friends are. Its no wonder that there a saying goes "forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest". Indeed, their love is sweet and say yet strong and firm. It is a really recommended manga to read.
Genre: Josei, Tragedy, Romance, Drama
Status: Complete
My thoughts:
It has been so long since I last read such a good manga. Although the previous one that I read Cappuccino wasn't too bad as well. Nonetheless, I would say this is one of those mangas that I have read that could touch my heart so much that I cried while reading it. This just shows how awesome this manga is.
Seriously, this turns out better than I have expected. I was quite hestitant on reading it at first but looking at the ratings and it has only 4 chapters, I've decided to give it a try and I didn't regret reading it. It seems and looks so real that I can imagine the feelings the character feels inside me. I really couldnt stop my tears.
Now the storyline. Although it is a japanese artist but the story revolves around koreans. Amazing isn't it?
It talk about this charming playboy who brokes many girls heart, and couldnt stop going after for more girls since many couldnt resist his charm at all. Until this one faithful day, he met this girl at a bustop near a hospital and decided to pick her up.
He tried very hard in his very own ways to win this lady's heart only gradually to find himself falling deeply in love with her. He would do silly things just to make her smile at him. However, no matters how hard he tries, she never gives in and only insists to be friends. But that doesn't make him back down for her really loves her so much.
When he finally got her, the doctor who is in charge of his physical check up after his minor incident, break the news to him that he has a tumor near his heart and his life expectancy is short. He drives him into a corner so bad that he decided to break up with the lady but ended up finding out that she has lung problems and her days are numbered as well.
Despite knowing that their time together is short, the lady cut all contacts with him and even moved out from the hospital she is currently staying so as to avoid seeing him. He who really could not let go of this relationship after knowing his and her's condition, went through great lengths just to see her again. She finally agreed to start a relationship with him
Time is short but he manages to give her everything that she always wanted yet seems to be out of reached. They experienced happy moments and doing crazy things. Until the very end, he could not tell her that he has a tumor and has intended to hide it and to never let her know his condition. Because of his love for her, he does not wants to add on any worries since he has personally experienced how scary can death be and he doesnt want to put her through this again.
However, he never expected that the doctor in charge would break the news to her without him knowing. After she died, she left a telemessage that has preset it to be sent out after she passed away, in the message holds her final words, her feelings, and everything else that she knew and never told him about, including his condition.
That's how the story beautifully ended. It shows not only love between them but also their friends who constantly has been their support until the very end and how important friends are. Its no wonder that there a saying goes "forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest". Indeed, their love is sweet and say yet strong and firm. It is a really recommended manga to read.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sudden Thoughts About Myself
Recently I have been having and doing random things. I suddenly feel like updating my CV which stands for curriculum vitae, which also means resume. Also, I have the sudden thought of changing my job. And having the sudden urge to study for my exams which is in May. Last but not least, I have the sudden thought that I should only get a boy friend after I turn 25. How cool is that.
I have been hearing many things from my friends around me, be it younger, older or of the same age. With this I have finally come to a conclusion and I am going to stand firm on it and promise not to waver anymore and that is I will and ONLY WILL get a boyfriend after I turn 25. Why? Now I tell you why.
Unlike some of friends who are the fortunate ones, they already have a stable relationship with their boyfriends and its just a matter of time when they settle down. As for me, I somehow seems to have a little bad experience with guys. More like, I don't really have a very good memory of them.
Of all aspects in my life, I can overcome hardships in work, study and bowling. But the only thing I have been always very weak in is relationship. Seriously, I am not very good with that and as a result I would always prefer to end up as good friends. The harmony and balance that I don't want to break. Friendship is the everlasting one. But having said that, it doesn't mean that I ran away from all my encounters, its just that I have not truly met one whom I will go head over heels for.
As you can see, I am not someone any guy can match up with. Not like I'm saying that I'm damn high up or what, but in terms of character, I can never play the role of an injured deer or rabbit that always needed some one to be my support. Neither will I wail or whine to get my way. So basically I'm not anyone's typical girlfriend to start with. Oh yes, I understand that.
I always thought that I am strong and can walk down my life alone not getting into any relationship or whatsoever, until one of those days where I always pour my troubles onto my friends on our long journey home, she told me that no matter how strong or independent a woman may be, at some point in time when you're feeling down or when somethine bad happens and you really need a shoulder to cry on, you will realise how important your partner is. She even questioned me asking if I want to cry alone when that time comes.
To be honest, I probably will call up some close friends of mine and let my heart out if that time really comes that I would break down that badly. I hope that times like this wouldn't come and I don't want it to come either. Because the only time I can think of that I would reach that state, has only one scenario and I don't wish to mention it here.
It is only recently that I have come to realise and notice that I am indeed getting mature in my mentality. Guess it is true when those elderly tells you that as you grow older you will start to understand things that all along you have been very stubborn about. That I cannot deny.
From the day I have decided to go into accounting, I have aimed to be a career woman and of course at that point in time I am fully aware of the consequences many career women faced. That is they have no one who could stand beside them as their partner and they are destined to walk down the path of life alone with no support at all. I understand that and also willing to make that sacrifices. But now, I'm thinking a bit slightly different from then.
All along, I have modelled after my father in career wise and I want to have the same awareness as my mother that my father is lacking. Generally I want to inherit both my parents good points and put these characteristics into mine. To mould myself to be an independent and relaible girl to a point where my parents can not worry about me anymore. I have always kept that image in me. Up till today, I am not anywhere near my father nor my mother. I don't have the wisdom my father has nor do I have the precision my mother has. I only start to see this in the recent years after many many things happened.
At the same time when I want to be strong, I was weak too but fortunately I always have my parents there for me to walk through anything and everything and for me, they have always been strong and firm. As for me, I'm still as timid as ever and couldn't really do anything on my own or rather for my own's sake. But that's all there is to me isn't it? That's kinda sad if you think about it.
So you see, I am neither here nor there now and this really makes things a little complicated comapred to my secondary school days where I have only two worries, studies and bowling and nothing else matters. If you were to ask me what made me change my mindset, I couldn't tell you exactly what is it but probably I would say from life experiences and that I am really not young anymore.
I look around my friends, especially guys, who once told me to be their girlfriend, and I look at the lives they have been living up till now, and some has gotten themselves a wonderful girlfriend I hope. So much for all the love letters back in school days and all the promises made, they are lovely aren't they? Yes, I couldn't deny that and with so much changes around us, it forces me to think that age has really catch up with me and soon enough I will be stepping into another world so different from mine now.
With all these going round and round in a never ending cycle, I feel that a person's mind and heart would probably by most stable when you reach 25 and above. Be it a male or female. 25 is like the breaking age where some how or somewhere along the line, emotionally more stable and more sensible in many things. Although I my sound every positive here, trust me, I have very little confidence in guys. That's one reason why I always go running to my three female friends, even though one of them is not really reliable, to pour and consult my worries. I bet they are damn frustrated with me and find me annoying. (they are fsm, ts, sml) *smiles*
Now with my new resolution in mind, I hope that I can help myself to reduce some troubles and worries because I know myself some times I can get too carried away and I should open up my view a little more. To accept things and situation that I am not comfortable with or to recall back what it used to be like back in those days where I enjoyed my life the most. I have decided to set m heart all out on studies and my career. Relationship will come later and I will not go look for it. Neither will I go around pondering over anybody whether will he be my Mr. Right.
Also, I hope my mother could stop nagging and harping on this issue. But then again, I can never really run away from it isn't it? Well, guess I will need to face my mother head on and tell her straight out what I have planned out for my life for the time being while the future is still being subjected to changes. LOL. I really hop ethat my resolution can help me pull through this stage that I am in.
So that you know, at my age is actually one of the most dangerous stage in part of the growing up. Because now that you are legally an adult and that you have to be responsible for your own actions. Innocent and naiveness does not really apply anymore and ignorant won't help you to get out of trouble. Worst still, people my age are usually reckless, rushing for don't know what reasons, curious about adult life, gets into complicated relationship and making serious mistakes in life.
At the end of the day, I wish I could stay the way I am and at the same time grow to become a better person in life. I am not here on this Earth by chance, I am here for a reason. For a good reason I hope. I hold my own fate, my own destiny and paint the picture I want and colour my life the way I want it. To know that I will never regret in any decisions I made, and to live my day to the fullest. I must build myself to be a stronger person in mind and to have more self-discipline.
Having that all said, can I really do it? Sigh... ... ... ...
Screw it, I can do it :)
Faith is taking the first step when you cannot see the whole staircase.
I have been hearing many things from my friends around me, be it younger, older or of the same age. With this I have finally come to a conclusion and I am going to stand firm on it and promise not to waver anymore and that is I will and ONLY WILL get a boyfriend after I turn 25. Why? Now I tell you why.
Unlike some of friends who are the fortunate ones, they already have a stable relationship with their boyfriends and its just a matter of time when they settle down. As for me, I somehow seems to have a little bad experience with guys. More like, I don't really have a very good memory of them.
Of all aspects in my life, I can overcome hardships in work, study and bowling. But the only thing I have been always very weak in is relationship. Seriously, I am not very good with that and as a result I would always prefer to end up as good friends. The harmony and balance that I don't want to break. Friendship is the everlasting one. But having said that, it doesn't mean that I ran away from all my encounters, its just that I have not truly met one whom I will go head over heels for.
As you can see, I am not someone any guy can match up with. Not like I'm saying that I'm damn high up or what, but in terms of character, I can never play the role of an injured deer or rabbit that always needed some one to be my support. Neither will I wail or whine to get my way. So basically I'm not anyone's typical girlfriend to start with. Oh yes, I understand that.
I always thought that I am strong and can walk down my life alone not getting into any relationship or whatsoever, until one of those days where I always pour my troubles onto my friends on our long journey home, she told me that no matter how strong or independent a woman may be, at some point in time when you're feeling down or when somethine bad happens and you really need a shoulder to cry on, you will realise how important your partner is. She even questioned me asking if I want to cry alone when that time comes.
To be honest, I probably will call up some close friends of mine and let my heart out if that time really comes that I would break down that badly. I hope that times like this wouldn't come and I don't want it to come either. Because the only time I can think of that I would reach that state, has only one scenario and I don't wish to mention it here.
It is only recently that I have come to realise and notice that I am indeed getting mature in my mentality. Guess it is true when those elderly tells you that as you grow older you will start to understand things that all along you have been very stubborn about. That I cannot deny.
From the day I have decided to go into accounting, I have aimed to be a career woman and of course at that point in time I am fully aware of the consequences many career women faced. That is they have no one who could stand beside them as their partner and they are destined to walk down the path of life alone with no support at all. I understand that and also willing to make that sacrifices. But now, I'm thinking a bit slightly different from then.
All along, I have modelled after my father in career wise and I want to have the same awareness as my mother that my father is lacking. Generally I want to inherit both my parents good points and put these characteristics into mine. To mould myself to be an independent and relaible girl to a point where my parents can not worry about me anymore. I have always kept that image in me. Up till today, I am not anywhere near my father nor my mother. I don't have the wisdom my father has nor do I have the precision my mother has. I only start to see this in the recent years after many many things happened.
At the same time when I want to be strong, I was weak too but fortunately I always have my parents there for me to walk through anything and everything and for me, they have always been strong and firm. As for me, I'm still as timid as ever and couldn't really do anything on my own or rather for my own's sake. But that's all there is to me isn't it? That's kinda sad if you think about it.
So you see, I am neither here nor there now and this really makes things a little complicated comapred to my secondary school days where I have only two worries, studies and bowling and nothing else matters. If you were to ask me what made me change my mindset, I couldn't tell you exactly what is it but probably I would say from life experiences and that I am really not young anymore.
I look around my friends, especially guys, who once told me to be their girlfriend, and I look at the lives they have been living up till now, and some has gotten themselves a wonderful girlfriend I hope. So much for all the love letters back in school days and all the promises made, they are lovely aren't they? Yes, I couldn't deny that and with so much changes around us, it forces me to think that age has really catch up with me and soon enough I will be stepping into another world so different from mine now.
With all these going round and round in a never ending cycle, I feel that a person's mind and heart would probably by most stable when you reach 25 and above. Be it a male or female. 25 is like the breaking age where some how or somewhere along the line, emotionally more stable and more sensible in many things. Although I my sound every positive here, trust me, I have very little confidence in guys. That's one reason why I always go running to my three female friends, even though one of them is not really reliable, to pour and consult my worries. I bet they are damn frustrated with me and find me annoying. (they are fsm, ts, sml) *smiles*
Now with my new resolution in mind, I hope that I can help myself to reduce some troubles and worries because I know myself some times I can get too carried away and I should open up my view a little more. To accept things and situation that I am not comfortable with or to recall back what it used to be like back in those days where I enjoyed my life the most. I have decided to set m heart all out on studies and my career. Relationship will come later and I will not go look for it. Neither will I go around pondering over anybody whether will he be my Mr. Right.
Also, I hope my mother could stop nagging and harping on this issue. But then again, I can never really run away from it isn't it? Well, guess I will need to face my mother head on and tell her straight out what I have planned out for my life for the time being while the future is still being subjected to changes. LOL. I really hop ethat my resolution can help me pull through this stage that I am in.
So that you know, at my age is actually one of the most dangerous stage in part of the growing up. Because now that you are legally an adult and that you have to be responsible for your own actions. Innocent and naiveness does not really apply anymore and ignorant won't help you to get out of trouble. Worst still, people my age are usually reckless, rushing for don't know what reasons, curious about adult life, gets into complicated relationship and making serious mistakes in life.
At the end of the day, I wish I could stay the way I am and at the same time grow to become a better person in life. I am not here on this Earth by chance, I am here for a reason. For a good reason I hope. I hold my own fate, my own destiny and paint the picture I want and colour my life the way I want it. To know that I will never regret in any decisions I made, and to live my day to the fullest. I must build myself to be a stronger person in mind and to have more self-discipline.
Having that all said, can I really do it? Sigh... ... ... ...
Screw it, I can do it :)
Faith is taking the first step when you cannot see the whole staircase.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Just Like This
Another year has gone by and now thinking back to all those time again, it all felt like it was just yesterday. Although a new year is here, everything still remains unchanged. I am still working my ass off on weekends, and studying my brains off for my exams; some time around in May which means it's around the corner.
Like the previous year, we gathered at Jolin's pub for countdown and celebration of the new year. We had an after party at wee's house until six in the morning and I was dead tired. I went back shower and 'plop' to sleep. Oh I forgot someone, greg stayed over at my place. And so here I am on a Sunday in my office working and feeling sleepy.
The start of the year was not as bad as last year but I wouldn't say that it started well too. I made a couple of mistakes at work and my co-workers have to cover my ass for that and today, I have collected the wrong amount of fees. demoralizing isn't it? It's just the start of the year, first few days of work and troubles keep pouring in.
Despite all these, I had fun at Kawai's 20th party last night. It was damn awesome and it felt like it was her 21st instead. but damn it, she'a young so still 20. I hope she doesn't read my blog if not I'm going to get it from her. lol.
Also, steffi has been harping on her bf forever but oh well as long as she's happy with it, as a friend that is the only thing i can do i guess. Then you know something, I just cutted my finger this morning with a pen knife. F-ing pain can. doo doo back side. it's quite deep some more. it couldnt stop bleeding for a few minutes.
omg i'm so damn sleepy...i wanna sleep now now now....but working zzzzzzz
Like the previous year, we gathered at Jolin's pub for countdown and celebration of the new year. We had an after party at wee's house until six in the morning and I was dead tired. I went back shower and 'plop' to sleep. Oh I forgot someone, greg stayed over at my place. And so here I am on a Sunday in my office working and feeling sleepy.
The start of the year was not as bad as last year but I wouldn't say that it started well too. I made a couple of mistakes at work and my co-workers have to cover my ass for that and today, I have collected the wrong amount of fees. demoralizing isn't it? It's just the start of the year, first few days of work and troubles keep pouring in.
Despite all these, I had fun at Kawai's 20th party last night. It was damn awesome and it felt like it was her 21st instead. but damn it, she'a young so still 20. I hope she doesn't read my blog if not I'm going to get it from her. lol.
Also, steffi has been harping on her bf forever but oh well as long as she's happy with it, as a friend that is the only thing i can do i guess. Then you know something, I just cutted my finger this morning with a pen knife. F-ing pain can. doo doo back side. it's quite deep some more. it couldnt stop bleeding for a few minutes.
omg i'm so damn sleepy...i wanna sleep now now now....but working zzzzzzz
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