Bla Bla Bla~~~

Yea yea yea, okay i know i know so stop reminding me people. exams are around the corner and guess what, i did not even do my tutorials and essays let alone to flip through my notes to start my revision. ggxx. i know how screwed i am now so stop stressing me any further. besides it is a super challenging task to match siewmei's, maylou's and my schedules together to find common days for group study. we are all so busy with work and the both them with their boyfriends. -_-''

Siewmei says she is gonna come out with some spreadsheet thingy for the 3 of us so that we could come together to study. awesome! and also, maylou told me the other day she has already started studying. zomg. and just a few days ago i discovered from my classmates, they have ALL started their REVISION! omg. and so, what am i doing here, at seimpi school of music, working my ass off for? well, for my pocket money obviously :) smiles. but still, studies are important. yea boy, i need to buck up.

the first step to get me into this is to find my source of motivation, which obviously is something i did not have at the first place for studies, and also self discipline which is also something really challenging for me. there are too many temptations around, like sleep, manga, animes, eat and maybe to chill out with friends. all these are never ending. *sigh*

so the morale of the story is, i need to start studying real soon. at first i was thinking of starting after chinese new year, but it is not quite possible given my current situation and because i am just tooooooo lazy to dooooo anything. argh! where's my drive?!?!?!? still finding still finding..

alright, i will go home and study after work today.

awesome.

Some things

It has been donkey years since I last went to a movie with my PARENTS! awesome right. I know. The last time I watched a movie with the both of them (according to my dad) was when I was oly 2 years old. Tell me, how am I supposed to remember something like that?! OMG, I was only 2 years old darling.

The only time I could remember going to a movie with my mother was when I was in primary school. Very certain but don't know which year was it. The movie we wateched was Lion King, the Pride Rock. Awesome! Up till now, I still love that movie. I can recite the entire plot for you at the back of my memory. If only I put that into my studies, I would have been a scholar. yea right!

We are going to watch Avatar 3D and even though I have already watched this show with Steffi, weewee and the others, I still wanna watch it again. Of course the other time I watched 2d because 3D ran out of seats. Besides, my dad is sponsoring my movie ticket for today, so why not! **Smiles**

Anyway, we are going to downtown east to catch a 950pm show and my dad did not know that we could book online. He is a moutain tortise but that what makes him funny and it is so like my dad. SO CUTE!!! yea right....my backside.

So the show is gonna end around say 1am?! and i need to work tomorrow morning at 830am. Ong She-na, well done. G Game. Some more I still have many issues I need to deal with tomorrow and my sunday teachers have been giving me hell a lot of problems and they have been falling sick for god knows what reason that it may be.

Off I go now to a movie with my parents.

Look Around Me :)

still browsing on his photos and i thought how nice it must have been. and then when i slowly recall, he did told me this plan of his once in his car. his plans to do countdown elsewhere instead of singapore. indeed, he made his dreams come true and of places he choose japan. well, i'm not implying that he cannot go since it is his freedom. but why of all places, his first stop has to be japan. nevermind me. i'm just annoyed. thinking that he just wanted some one or any one to acompany hm to fulfil this dream of his. it was just last year november, after my nepal trip, that he asked me out and he just gotten himself a girlfriend before christmas eve. say, guy changes mind pretty fast isn't it? it just within weeks and he still dare to tell me he would do anything for us to be together. bullcrap. honestly, their words, as sweet as it is, contains more lies than truth in it.

and then after looking at how happy they are and i knew instantly that they are creating happy memories and then i decided to browse through my own photos. i laughed. laugh at my own stupidity and also at those photos. me too, had my fun although it is not that romantic kind of fun but it is the warmth, jokes, laughter, friends, and all those silly things we did, that makes the best out of everything. i know that i am not alone. for the past few days, those times when i thought that i was lonely without you, i was wrong. i wasn't. i had my friends, who stood by me in rough, happy and wild times. these friends, have never once turn me down when i needed them. although they may be busy with the boyfriends and girlfriends or even bowling, studies and work, we still spend our holidays together doing crazy things. from birthdays to gatherings to holiday trip and to festive party, they are always there :) awesome friends i have.

i looked at all those photos and remembered what we all did, i smiled again. thinking back how much laughter they have brought into my life and the bond that we have that can never be shaken easily. well, i have to admit that some of them suffered more from my nonsense and my non-stop grumbling about so many things from bowling to my bitches and to my studies. surprisingly, they have never gotten sick of it and still willingly listens to all my nagging and complains. say, aren't they awesome?! i really love my friends.

after looking at my photos, i looked through my own albums and realised that i had my own adventure too. *so what you have your tokyo adventure* anyway, i have been to places that i really love, for example: JAPAN!!!! although i have to admit that i felt a bit lonel because my dad and mum were like a bit lovey dovey and i don't have siblings to play with and i don't enjoy talking to strangers so i always end up entertaining myself. even though i am already used to entertaining myself since young, but still, it is bored. however i still love it. it is hard for my family to get together often even though it is just the 3 of us and because of my work and studies, my dad's working and golf and my mum's mahjong. it's rare for all of us to travel around especially i am already not young anymore and probably does not enjoy travelling with a family. but hey, i really enjoyed all the times i spent with my family.

and so i know, i am always surronded by wonderful people. shouldnt be too involved in my own feelings for something else. i have enough and have nothing more to ask =)

Easy going is cool~

Dragged myself off the bed this morning and skipped breakfast all just because of the buffet later at Suntec.

Met up with Siewmei at tamp control station and had a japanese old lady who could speak fluent english asking me for directions. Out of all people in the crowd, she approached me. awesome isn't it. it seems like i always have this "LOOK" that strangers will tend to approach for me to ask for directions and stuff when actually i'm bad in directions myself. and, friends say first impression of my is dao and stuck up, so why are there still people coming to be if i had that scary look? weird.

Whack don't know how many plates of fish paste :) yum yum yum. the fish paste there is my all time favourite. of course there were the mantous, chestnut cake and the nian gao...omg...ggxx super suepr full. had the sense of satisfaction.

when over to PS to do some shopping here and there and bought same stuff for my over-flowing dvds and vcds. damn, need to pack my room soon before mother starts yelling at me since CNY is around the corner. what a chore!

bad news: HOKKAIDO trip may be CANCELLED. because 1. JAL is going bankrupt. 2. not enough people to sign up for the trip. God, do you need to be so cruel to me? I really want to go Japan to enjoy myself and get the freaking out of this country once in a while. Never mind, daddy will tell me the outcome tomorrow.

Good news: i have recovered 4 folders from Siewmei's ext hdd. Awesome shit. But there were some jpegs/photos that i could not open with my laptop. but oh well, at least i knew i recovered some of her movies like 17again or something like that. Alright, will continue the recovery tomorrow since I cannot do the recovery anymore today.

Anyway, took a super long bus ride home from PS. at times like this, i love long bus ride with my ipod on and my mind in a blank. it gives me an excuse to think about many things about the past, present and the future. don't worry, i'm a tough girl. Will get by some how.

Tomorrow will be a freaking long day. Had school from 930am ro 530pm. OMG! and after that worked from 615pm to 915pm. PENGZ. i'm so gonna collapsed tomorrow.

Signing off......