Alright, let's say "WELCOME TO 2010!". I know that's a bit too late since it has already been more than a week after we have welcomed the new year some time back.
So with the new year here, there is also a new year resolution. It is only recently that I have decided on my new year resolution and I will try my best to meet my own expectations. *smiles*
Year 2010 Resolution:
1. Pay more attention and not to fall asleep in class. *this is a little challenging because books ain't my best friends at all.
2. Study REAL HARD for my upcoming mock tests in march and exams in may. *i don't wanna repeat another year.
3. Increase Seimpi Parkway student enrolment by 50 students by the end of May. *awesome right? i'm referring to net intake meaning including termination.
4. Get myself a suitable auditing job and free my weekends for rest and play. *not quite possible at the moment but still trying.
5. Lose at least 5kg by the end of the year. *since i've stopped bowling means no more exercising, i'd better watch my weight and figure. besides it's pretty manageable.
6. To learn at least 3 more pieces of new piano songs from my teachers. *i have already conquered [i'll be there by jackson 5]. now attempting [everything i do by bryan adams].
7. Be a nice person. *although i'm always nice :)
I think that's all to it. Maybe I should add something like learning how to cook and etc... but on second thought i'd better not list that down because the probability of me doing that is nearly impossible. The other things is i want to travel. But then again, it is not possible because my schedule is always so tight and i'm always so busy. Having said that, perhaps it is time for me to do some catching up with some of my old friends. It has been a while since i last comunicate with them. Wonder how are they doing now.
It is also time for the few of us to go sentosa for a break, go sing k after harping on it for so long and never once really get it done, go play l4d2 and make a fool of ourselves and probably can hear steffi cursing and swearing, and play mahjong since we have talking about it and it never came true.
exams are coming... are coming... are coming.. exams are coming... and i'm so not nervous. that is not really a good sign. I am getting anxious because i am not anxious about my exams. *sigh* Really need to start to motivate myself a bit more to study harder. She-na Ganbatte! Fighting!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Renri no Eda
Manga: Renri no Eda
Genre: Josei, Tragedy, Romance, Drama
Status: Complete
My thoughts:
It has been so long since I last read such a good manga. Although the previous one that I read Cappuccino wasn't too bad as well. Nonetheless, I would say this is one of those mangas that I have read that could touch my heart so much that I cried while reading it. This just shows how awesome this manga is.
Seriously, this turns out better than I have expected. I was quite hestitant on reading it at first but looking at the ratings and it has only 4 chapters, I've decided to give it a try and I didn't regret reading it. It seems and looks so real that I can imagine the feelings the character feels inside me. I really couldnt stop my tears.
Now the storyline. Although it is a japanese artist but the story revolves around koreans. Amazing isn't it?
It talk about this charming playboy who brokes many girls heart, and couldnt stop going after for more girls since many couldnt resist his charm at all. Until this one faithful day, he met this girl at a bustop near a hospital and decided to pick her up.
He tried very hard in his very own ways to win this lady's heart only gradually to find himself falling deeply in love with her. He would do silly things just to make her smile at him. However, no matters how hard he tries, she never gives in and only insists to be friends. But that doesn't make him back down for her really loves her so much.
When he finally got her, the doctor who is in charge of his physical check up after his minor incident, break the news to him that he has a tumor near his heart and his life expectancy is short. He drives him into a corner so bad that he decided to break up with the lady but ended up finding out that she has lung problems and her days are numbered as well.
Despite knowing that their time together is short, the lady cut all contacts with him and even moved out from the hospital she is currently staying so as to avoid seeing him. He who really could not let go of this relationship after knowing his and her's condition, went through great lengths just to see her again. She finally agreed to start a relationship with him
Time is short but he manages to give her everything that she always wanted yet seems to be out of reached. They experienced happy moments and doing crazy things. Until the very end, he could not tell her that he has a tumor and has intended to hide it and to never let her know his condition. Because of his love for her, he does not wants to add on any worries since he has personally experienced how scary can death be and he doesnt want to put her through this again.
However, he never expected that the doctor in charge would break the news to her without him knowing. After she died, she left a telemessage that has preset it to be sent out after she passed away, in the message holds her final words, her feelings, and everything else that she knew and never told him about, including his condition.
That's how the story beautifully ended. It shows not only love between them but also their friends who constantly has been their support until the very end and how important friends are. Its no wonder that there a saying goes "forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest". Indeed, their love is sweet and say yet strong and firm. It is a really recommended manga to read.
Genre: Josei, Tragedy, Romance, Drama
Status: Complete
My thoughts:
It has been so long since I last read such a good manga. Although the previous one that I read Cappuccino wasn't too bad as well. Nonetheless, I would say this is one of those mangas that I have read that could touch my heart so much that I cried while reading it. This just shows how awesome this manga is.
Seriously, this turns out better than I have expected. I was quite hestitant on reading it at first but looking at the ratings and it has only 4 chapters, I've decided to give it a try and I didn't regret reading it. It seems and looks so real that I can imagine the feelings the character feels inside me. I really couldnt stop my tears.
Now the storyline. Although it is a japanese artist but the story revolves around koreans. Amazing isn't it?
It talk about this charming playboy who brokes many girls heart, and couldnt stop going after for more girls since many couldnt resist his charm at all. Until this one faithful day, he met this girl at a bustop near a hospital and decided to pick her up.
He tried very hard in his very own ways to win this lady's heart only gradually to find himself falling deeply in love with her. He would do silly things just to make her smile at him. However, no matters how hard he tries, she never gives in and only insists to be friends. But that doesn't make him back down for her really loves her so much.
When he finally got her, the doctor who is in charge of his physical check up after his minor incident, break the news to him that he has a tumor near his heart and his life expectancy is short. He drives him into a corner so bad that he decided to break up with the lady but ended up finding out that she has lung problems and her days are numbered as well.
Despite knowing that their time together is short, the lady cut all contacts with him and even moved out from the hospital she is currently staying so as to avoid seeing him. He who really could not let go of this relationship after knowing his and her's condition, went through great lengths just to see her again. She finally agreed to start a relationship with him
Time is short but he manages to give her everything that she always wanted yet seems to be out of reached. They experienced happy moments and doing crazy things. Until the very end, he could not tell her that he has a tumor and has intended to hide it and to never let her know his condition. Because of his love for her, he does not wants to add on any worries since he has personally experienced how scary can death be and he doesnt want to put her through this again.
However, he never expected that the doctor in charge would break the news to her without him knowing. After she died, she left a telemessage that has preset it to be sent out after she passed away, in the message holds her final words, her feelings, and everything else that she knew and never told him about, including his condition.
That's how the story beautifully ended. It shows not only love between them but also their friends who constantly has been their support until the very end and how important friends are. Its no wonder that there a saying goes "forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest". Indeed, their love is sweet and say yet strong and firm. It is a really recommended manga to read.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sudden Thoughts About Myself
Recently I have been having and doing random things. I suddenly feel like updating my CV which stands for curriculum vitae, which also means resume. Also, I have the sudden thought of changing my job. And having the sudden urge to study for my exams which is in May. Last but not least, I have the sudden thought that I should only get a boy friend after I turn 25. How cool is that.
I have been hearing many things from my friends around me, be it younger, older or of the same age. With this I have finally come to a conclusion and I am going to stand firm on it and promise not to waver anymore and that is I will and ONLY WILL get a boyfriend after I turn 25. Why? Now I tell you why.
Unlike some of friends who are the fortunate ones, they already have a stable relationship with their boyfriends and its just a matter of time when they settle down. As for me, I somehow seems to have a little bad experience with guys. More like, I don't really have a very good memory of them.
Of all aspects in my life, I can overcome hardships in work, study and bowling. But the only thing I have been always very weak in is relationship. Seriously, I am not very good with that and as a result I would always prefer to end up as good friends. The harmony and balance that I don't want to break. Friendship is the everlasting one. But having said that, it doesn't mean that I ran away from all my encounters, its just that I have not truly met one whom I will go head over heels for.
As you can see, I am not someone any guy can match up with. Not like I'm saying that I'm damn high up or what, but in terms of character, I can never play the role of an injured deer or rabbit that always needed some one to be my support. Neither will I wail or whine to get my way. So basically I'm not anyone's typical girlfriend to start with. Oh yes, I understand that.
I always thought that I am strong and can walk down my life alone not getting into any relationship or whatsoever, until one of those days where I always pour my troubles onto my friends on our long journey home, she told me that no matter how strong or independent a woman may be, at some point in time when you're feeling down or when somethine bad happens and you really need a shoulder to cry on, you will realise how important your partner is. She even questioned me asking if I want to cry alone when that time comes.
To be honest, I probably will call up some close friends of mine and let my heart out if that time really comes that I would break down that badly. I hope that times like this wouldn't come and I don't want it to come either. Because the only time I can think of that I would reach that state, has only one scenario and I don't wish to mention it here.
It is only recently that I have come to realise and notice that I am indeed getting mature in my mentality. Guess it is true when those elderly tells you that as you grow older you will start to understand things that all along you have been very stubborn about. That I cannot deny.
From the day I have decided to go into accounting, I have aimed to be a career woman and of course at that point in time I am fully aware of the consequences many career women faced. That is they have no one who could stand beside them as their partner and they are destined to walk down the path of life alone with no support at all. I understand that and also willing to make that sacrifices. But now, I'm thinking a bit slightly different from then.
All along, I have modelled after my father in career wise and I want to have the same awareness as my mother that my father is lacking. Generally I want to inherit both my parents good points and put these characteristics into mine. To mould myself to be an independent and relaible girl to a point where my parents can not worry about me anymore. I have always kept that image in me. Up till today, I am not anywhere near my father nor my mother. I don't have the wisdom my father has nor do I have the precision my mother has. I only start to see this in the recent years after many many things happened.
At the same time when I want to be strong, I was weak too but fortunately I always have my parents there for me to walk through anything and everything and for me, they have always been strong and firm. As for me, I'm still as timid as ever and couldn't really do anything on my own or rather for my own's sake. But that's all there is to me isn't it? That's kinda sad if you think about it.
So you see, I am neither here nor there now and this really makes things a little complicated comapred to my secondary school days where I have only two worries, studies and bowling and nothing else matters. If you were to ask me what made me change my mindset, I couldn't tell you exactly what is it but probably I would say from life experiences and that I am really not young anymore.
I look around my friends, especially guys, who once told me to be their girlfriend, and I look at the lives they have been living up till now, and some has gotten themselves a wonderful girlfriend I hope. So much for all the love letters back in school days and all the promises made, they are lovely aren't they? Yes, I couldn't deny that and with so much changes around us, it forces me to think that age has really catch up with me and soon enough I will be stepping into another world so different from mine now.
With all these going round and round in a never ending cycle, I feel that a person's mind and heart would probably by most stable when you reach 25 and above. Be it a male or female. 25 is like the breaking age where some how or somewhere along the line, emotionally more stable and more sensible in many things. Although I my sound every positive here, trust me, I have very little confidence in guys. That's one reason why I always go running to my three female friends, even though one of them is not really reliable, to pour and consult my worries. I bet they are damn frustrated with me and find me annoying. (they are fsm, ts, sml) *smiles*
Now with my new resolution in mind, I hope that I can help myself to reduce some troubles and worries because I know myself some times I can get too carried away and I should open up my view a little more. To accept things and situation that I am not comfortable with or to recall back what it used to be like back in those days where I enjoyed my life the most. I have decided to set m heart all out on studies and my career. Relationship will come later and I will not go look for it. Neither will I go around pondering over anybody whether will he be my Mr. Right.
Also, I hope my mother could stop nagging and harping on this issue. But then again, I can never really run away from it isn't it? Well, guess I will need to face my mother head on and tell her straight out what I have planned out for my life for the time being while the future is still being subjected to changes. LOL. I really hop ethat my resolution can help me pull through this stage that I am in.
So that you know, at my age is actually one of the most dangerous stage in part of the growing up. Because now that you are legally an adult and that you have to be responsible for your own actions. Innocent and naiveness does not really apply anymore and ignorant won't help you to get out of trouble. Worst still, people my age are usually reckless, rushing for don't know what reasons, curious about adult life, gets into complicated relationship and making serious mistakes in life.
At the end of the day, I wish I could stay the way I am and at the same time grow to become a better person in life. I am not here on this Earth by chance, I am here for a reason. For a good reason I hope. I hold my own fate, my own destiny and paint the picture I want and colour my life the way I want it. To know that I will never regret in any decisions I made, and to live my day to the fullest. I must build myself to be a stronger person in mind and to have more self-discipline.
Having that all said, can I really do it? Sigh... ... ... ...
Screw it, I can do it :)
Faith is taking the first step when you cannot see the whole staircase.
I have been hearing many things from my friends around me, be it younger, older or of the same age. With this I have finally come to a conclusion and I am going to stand firm on it and promise not to waver anymore and that is I will and ONLY WILL get a boyfriend after I turn 25. Why? Now I tell you why.
Unlike some of friends who are the fortunate ones, they already have a stable relationship with their boyfriends and its just a matter of time when they settle down. As for me, I somehow seems to have a little bad experience with guys. More like, I don't really have a very good memory of them.
Of all aspects in my life, I can overcome hardships in work, study and bowling. But the only thing I have been always very weak in is relationship. Seriously, I am not very good with that and as a result I would always prefer to end up as good friends. The harmony and balance that I don't want to break. Friendship is the everlasting one. But having said that, it doesn't mean that I ran away from all my encounters, its just that I have not truly met one whom I will go head over heels for.
As you can see, I am not someone any guy can match up with. Not like I'm saying that I'm damn high up or what, but in terms of character, I can never play the role of an injured deer or rabbit that always needed some one to be my support. Neither will I wail or whine to get my way. So basically I'm not anyone's typical girlfriend to start with. Oh yes, I understand that.
I always thought that I am strong and can walk down my life alone not getting into any relationship or whatsoever, until one of those days where I always pour my troubles onto my friends on our long journey home, she told me that no matter how strong or independent a woman may be, at some point in time when you're feeling down or when somethine bad happens and you really need a shoulder to cry on, you will realise how important your partner is. She even questioned me asking if I want to cry alone when that time comes.
To be honest, I probably will call up some close friends of mine and let my heart out if that time really comes that I would break down that badly. I hope that times like this wouldn't come and I don't want it to come either. Because the only time I can think of that I would reach that state, has only one scenario and I don't wish to mention it here.
It is only recently that I have come to realise and notice that I am indeed getting mature in my mentality. Guess it is true when those elderly tells you that as you grow older you will start to understand things that all along you have been very stubborn about. That I cannot deny.
From the day I have decided to go into accounting, I have aimed to be a career woman and of course at that point in time I am fully aware of the consequences many career women faced. That is they have no one who could stand beside them as their partner and they are destined to walk down the path of life alone with no support at all. I understand that and also willing to make that sacrifices. But now, I'm thinking a bit slightly different from then.
All along, I have modelled after my father in career wise and I want to have the same awareness as my mother that my father is lacking. Generally I want to inherit both my parents good points and put these characteristics into mine. To mould myself to be an independent and relaible girl to a point where my parents can not worry about me anymore. I have always kept that image in me. Up till today, I am not anywhere near my father nor my mother. I don't have the wisdom my father has nor do I have the precision my mother has. I only start to see this in the recent years after many many things happened.
At the same time when I want to be strong, I was weak too but fortunately I always have my parents there for me to walk through anything and everything and for me, they have always been strong and firm. As for me, I'm still as timid as ever and couldn't really do anything on my own or rather for my own's sake. But that's all there is to me isn't it? That's kinda sad if you think about it.
So you see, I am neither here nor there now and this really makes things a little complicated comapred to my secondary school days where I have only two worries, studies and bowling and nothing else matters. If you were to ask me what made me change my mindset, I couldn't tell you exactly what is it but probably I would say from life experiences and that I am really not young anymore.
I look around my friends, especially guys, who once told me to be their girlfriend, and I look at the lives they have been living up till now, and some has gotten themselves a wonderful girlfriend I hope. So much for all the love letters back in school days and all the promises made, they are lovely aren't they? Yes, I couldn't deny that and with so much changes around us, it forces me to think that age has really catch up with me and soon enough I will be stepping into another world so different from mine now.
With all these going round and round in a never ending cycle, I feel that a person's mind and heart would probably by most stable when you reach 25 and above. Be it a male or female. 25 is like the breaking age where some how or somewhere along the line, emotionally more stable and more sensible in many things. Although I my sound every positive here, trust me, I have very little confidence in guys. That's one reason why I always go running to my three female friends, even though one of them is not really reliable, to pour and consult my worries. I bet they are damn frustrated with me and find me annoying. (they are fsm, ts, sml) *smiles*
Now with my new resolution in mind, I hope that I can help myself to reduce some troubles and worries because I know myself some times I can get too carried away and I should open up my view a little more. To accept things and situation that I am not comfortable with or to recall back what it used to be like back in those days where I enjoyed my life the most. I have decided to set m heart all out on studies and my career. Relationship will come later and I will not go look for it. Neither will I go around pondering over anybody whether will he be my Mr. Right.
Also, I hope my mother could stop nagging and harping on this issue. But then again, I can never really run away from it isn't it? Well, guess I will need to face my mother head on and tell her straight out what I have planned out for my life for the time being while the future is still being subjected to changes. LOL. I really hop ethat my resolution can help me pull through this stage that I am in.
So that you know, at my age is actually one of the most dangerous stage in part of the growing up. Because now that you are legally an adult and that you have to be responsible for your own actions. Innocent and naiveness does not really apply anymore and ignorant won't help you to get out of trouble. Worst still, people my age are usually reckless, rushing for don't know what reasons, curious about adult life, gets into complicated relationship and making serious mistakes in life.
At the end of the day, I wish I could stay the way I am and at the same time grow to become a better person in life. I am not here on this Earth by chance, I am here for a reason. For a good reason I hope. I hold my own fate, my own destiny and paint the picture I want and colour my life the way I want it. To know that I will never regret in any decisions I made, and to live my day to the fullest. I must build myself to be a stronger person in mind and to have more self-discipline.
Having that all said, can I really do it? Sigh... ... ... ...
Screw it, I can do it :)
Faith is taking the first step when you cannot see the whole staircase.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Just Like This
Another year has gone by and now thinking back to all those time again, it all felt like it was just yesterday. Although a new year is here, everything still remains unchanged. I am still working my ass off on weekends, and studying my brains off for my exams; some time around in May which means it's around the corner.
Like the previous year, we gathered at Jolin's pub for countdown and celebration of the new year. We had an after party at wee's house until six in the morning and I was dead tired. I went back shower and 'plop' to sleep. Oh I forgot someone, greg stayed over at my place. And so here I am on a Sunday in my office working and feeling sleepy.
The start of the year was not as bad as last year but I wouldn't say that it started well too. I made a couple of mistakes at work and my co-workers have to cover my ass for that and today, I have collected the wrong amount of fees. demoralizing isn't it? It's just the start of the year, first few days of work and troubles keep pouring in.
Despite all these, I had fun at Kawai's 20th party last night. It was damn awesome and it felt like it was her 21st instead. but damn it, she'a young so still 20. I hope she doesn't read my blog if not I'm going to get it from her. lol.
Also, steffi has been harping on her bf forever but oh well as long as she's happy with it, as a friend that is the only thing i can do i guess. Then you know something, I just cutted my finger this morning with a pen knife. F-ing pain can. doo doo back side. it's quite deep some more. it couldnt stop bleeding for a few minutes.
omg i'm so damn sleepy...i wanna sleep now now now....but working zzzzzzz
Like the previous year, we gathered at Jolin's pub for countdown and celebration of the new year. We had an after party at wee's house until six in the morning and I was dead tired. I went back shower and 'plop' to sleep. Oh I forgot someone, greg stayed over at my place. And so here I am on a Sunday in my office working and feeling sleepy.
The start of the year was not as bad as last year but I wouldn't say that it started well too. I made a couple of mistakes at work and my co-workers have to cover my ass for that and today, I have collected the wrong amount of fees. demoralizing isn't it? It's just the start of the year, first few days of work and troubles keep pouring in.
Despite all these, I had fun at Kawai's 20th party last night. It was damn awesome and it felt like it was her 21st instead. but damn it, she'a young so still 20. I hope she doesn't read my blog if not I'm going to get it from her. lol.
Also, steffi has been harping on her bf forever but oh well as long as she's happy with it, as a friend that is the only thing i can do i guess. Then you know something, I just cutted my finger this morning with a pen knife. F-ing pain can. doo doo back side. it's quite deep some more. it couldnt stop bleeding for a few minutes.
omg i'm so damn sleepy...i wanna sleep now now now....but working zzzzzzz
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