End Of The Year Syndrome

Recently, it seems that I have encountered quite a number of people with very weird attitude. Perhaps it is towards the end of the year and everyone's mood is a bit at the low end because of the sudden work load that has been piling up. To be honest, I am equally stressed up as well.

When the month of December it's around the corner, I often experience mixed emotions. I'm happy because it's festive seasons, but on the other hand, work load has doubled and life has been a little miserable especially I have just completed my Half Mock test earlier this week. Also, December means that my final exams are around the corner. Tell me that I'm so dead.

Besides, not too long ago, I had this sudden urge of resigning from my current work. Frankly speaking, this environment that I am working in is really very chaotic. There is not one proper system and sometimes things can really get way out of hand. Some times I really wonder when the management have all the time to find fault with you on small errors, why don't they use this same amount of time to do something more productive?

I am not too sure myself whether in the near future will I be like them. But seriously, I am tired. very tired. Maybe cause I'm getting old. *smiles* But I'm always young at heart. Well, I guess the only way to brighten up my day is to indulge myself with animes and mangas. Speaking about mangas, I am running out of mangas to read. I'm looking for something more touching to the heart. Maybe I should start reading forums.

*Sigh* If I'm really that bored, maybe I should start studying for real. My goodness, I seriously do not wish to flank my final year now that I am already half way there. I need to buckle up and work hard. Like seriously work hard for my study. Afterall, I have more time now since "idiots & Jokers" no longer takes up my time and I really need to fully utilize my precious time.

Time passes by so fast. For those people who always find themselves bored and wants to find something to kill time, please think again, before you knew it, time is actually silently kiling you and not the other way round. Jeez, tell me is this a sign of old age? Probably. *smiles*

Right now, my current situation is that I am standing at a cross road, thinking where and which path should I take. What I really want and I know that I really need more self-discipline. I also need more self-motivation. I hope that one day I could become a millionaire overnight and do all the things that I want. For example, buying an acoustic piano for my leisure learning and also keeping my gu-zheng for a change time to time. I want to have lovely dogs that will always be there for me when I'm sad and also with my parents who will retire and no need to work and enjoy travelling around the world. That's too much of an ideal scenario isn't it? *laugh* But seriously, I want that kind of life. Soon enough I realised that it is not quite possible in Singapore.

Anyway, need to get back to work and damn the CCTV that's going to be watching me for the next 24/7 of my time here and my nightmare will start next tuesday. Life is going to interesting. The first step to believing is having faith.