Had this hilarious interview with *you know you know* today. what a bad day to choose, it's friday the 13th. well, couldnt get any better, was caught in the rain for 15 mins and I ended eating Mr. Bean for lunch while waiting for the rain to subside.
They told me I was given a chance merely because they might need to use me for next year end major games. They are expecting me to be of their service when there is a need for them to call for me. well said. but this time round, i don't give a damn to whatever plans you guys have for me. bull crap.
funny isn't it? they told me that they wiill not only up the training fees next year, but also will do some re-arrangements to the co-share. it's no longer a refund of co-share once you qualify for masters, it depends on the magnitude of the tournament. they may even make it so that you have to finish a certain position in the FINALS to get your REFUND of the CO-SHARE. tell me, should i cry or laugh? but i find it laughable in many ways.
besides, they said people been complainiing about the 20% tax. well, they said that they even thought of reversing the situation. we pay all the full amount and if we win, they will give us 20% or more. well, wonder if they have brains, anyway, they don't have one to start with.
the day *you know you know* implement this, no one would want to join them anymore. we could get full sponsorship from somewhere else. and what happens to this supposedly a non-profit organization? have they ever wonder that they are speaking to a person who takes business?! what's more accounting and auditing. you've got to be kidding me. they think too full of themselves. which they have always been anyway.
and they made some unnecessary comparison. and i kinda shoot them with my "HRM" knowlegde. thank goodness i attended class today. so my memory is still kinda fresh. what nonsense are they spouting. comparing us to the westerners. you've got to be joking. our culture is not even the same with theirs to start with. don't be ridiculous people.
they told me so many jokes today. now that i'm thinking whether should i bowl for the upcoming event. because they say, no money no play. oh well, i'll just have to see what kind of faces they are going to show me. forget about the major, forget about Ovaltine, forget about everything. I'll take the ride and go off on my own.
felt so empty now that i no longer have so many commitments. was thinking of completing my music. after i stopped at grade 4, maybe i should continue to grade 8. not too bad an idea. music does not segregate age, gender or nationality. passion lies within the listener and how the listener interprets the music piece.
somehow, although i said that i felt empty but at the same time this feeling is also a sign of relief. finally, after many years of struggling, debating, anticipating, hoping, arguing, feeling disappointed and agony. i have put a stop to all these once and for all. like a stone lifted from my chest, i have truly given up hope on them.
i'm amused myself to think that i have stayed with them for so long. speaking about commitment, i had it compromise with other factors. i don't regret doing it but still will feel the ache. it's okay, it's just like a heartbreak. time heal. when i get too busy, i may eventually forget that i'ma bowler. I will be a successful person in my field of work. and show that i have not wasted my youth days for nothing.
i had my fun, laughter and sad moments. it's alright. this journey took me longer than it should. i'm tired. am not going to embark on this journey anymore. but to my friends from the same circle as me, i would certainly hope that even when i'm no longer with the organization, we are still friends who hangs out, have fun, talk cock, sing k, eat steamboat, play mj and party till we drop.
what a tiring day i had.
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